My Approach; My Perspective; Why I Get Confused In The GVC; And Why I’m Glad When I Just Don’t Take It As Seriously As I Used To

 

My perception of reality has changed quite a bit since I began my conscious spiritual journey as a teenager. I have explored what beautiful and dark places that there were in my psyche and my conscious personality. When I write, I do it with the intention that I am merely talking about my personal experience and my analysis of that experience. I do not believe that I am the norm or the typical version of anything. What I write about are my observations of what I see inside myself, my reactions and how I understand all of those concepts. I explore ideas and techniques and working conclusions. If some idea seems to fit better as a relative truth that I can relate to, then I adopt it.

I approach concepts like a chaos magician. If they seem practical in the sense that they provide more of a payoff or a benefit than one that I previously used, then I will adjust and let go of the older idea that was not as beneficial. If I cannot see very many benefits to an idea or technique OR if the detriments are glaringly outweighing any possible benefits, I might not explore the new idea in any great depth to begin with.

In the GVC, I have come across a range of personalities who have expressed their ideas through blogs, Facebook posts and direct communication with me. I’ve bought a few of their books and I’ve watched a few documentaries.  I’ve read articles.  Lots and lots of articles.

Despite any and all attempts to unify the “real vampires” of the GVC, I have come to understand that “vampire” is an umbrella term for the various human beings who have self-identified as one or another of the various interpretations of what a “vampire” is. As much as MY definition of what a Vampire is makes sense to ME, I have to admit that there are also many other definitions that I do not agree with. But, I respect that these are the self-definitions of the members of the GVC that share the community with me.

Personally, I don’t adhere to the “if you think you’re a vampire, you’re a vampire” concept. It makes more sense to me to work with the idea of a specific type of being that I think of as a Modern Vampire, so that I can distill and work with the information relevant to that self-conception in practical ways….for my personal well-being and evolution, as well as having relevant information to pass on to others like myself.

Admittedly, I also have my limitations as to where I will be comfortable sharing the Vampire “classification” with those other definitions and interpretations that lie outside of my own. When I first joined the community, I felt that I needed to defend the standard interpretation of The Vampire, as held by the groups that I was in. Now, I see our various interpretations of “The Vampire” as a grouping of various descriptions of blood- and/or energy-feeders.  Whether it was ORIGINALLY one or multiple of these kinds of creatures which were first classified as the Vampires of history–it is not as important to me to figure that out as is helping these types live and flourish NOW in our modern world.

Even when someone speaks of or writes about one “type” of Vampire being the true type or speaks about what are supposed to be our rules of conduct–I automatically interpret that as the speaker/writer talking about their personal perspective…what is important or relevant information to them.  (And their best guesses.) There is no one religion, religious book or philosophy which could possibly apply to Universal human experience. When the members of the Vampire Community speak about their experiences, interpretations and guidelines for rules of conduct–there is no way that I can take each commentary as Universal or absolute, even when the individual tries to represent it as such.

If I do not agree with someone else’s advice or analysis, I will probably be prompted to give my own ideas on the theme. I offer it as an alternative. Even if I do not mean it to be prescriptive in any way, I offer a variation to open the space for others to also have their variations in the same areas.

When we dismiss or argue that someone else’s conduct or information is wrong–we are SOMETIMES implying that their perception, interpretation, observation or analysis of their own experience is incorrect.  This idea might be underlying the additional idea that what they are saying is dangerous or unethical.  (I am not saying that there should be a free-for-all or that we should accept any and all claims of experience.  I think it might be more productive to keep in mind that sometimes SOME people are completely sincere in their estimation of their personal experience.  When we come up aggressively against that, we just end up arguing and don’t get anything productive accomplished.)

As far as dangerous activity goes, we find two levels on which we can encounter harm–physical and non-physical.  Common sense and common courtesy should be standards for everyone’s behavior before they ever enter the Vampire Community.  A standard of knowing what one can do with one’s body and system before any physical donation is involved, just seems like it should be a given.  My parents told me not to eat soap when I was a toddler.  I didn’t need to be reminded as a teenager, or anytime after that.

Working with the energetic/spiritual level is a little more subjective–as far as energy vampirism goes, I tend to find that I am on the edge of what I believe is safe behavior for a spiritual/energetic being.  Keeping that in mind, I don’t always contradict others’ interpretation of their experiences as wrong, as much as I keep in mind that their reference points and framework might be different than mine.

Besides our internal community arguments about what is the correct way to view and share our interpretations of Vampirism, and which information we should pass along to the newbies….we seem to argue quite a bit about how we should present ourselves [i.e., how we must look] to the amorphous society outside of our Community.

At the beginning of my stay in the GVC, I was very much concerned with how I thought that Vampires must look to the “outside world.”  Given, treatment of Vampires and those suspected of being Vampires will vary depending on region, culture and subculture.  Of course, I would recommend that anyone in any area or circumstance in which they would be in any sort of physical danger or threat of discrimination, should stay in the coffin.  But, here in my world, I am more likely to view the dangers of disclosure on a sliding scale.

In my case, I’m referring to my personal experience, again.  I am referring to my particular social environment.  I move within Chicano, as well as more Latin American cliques.  As a gay man in the particular latino subculture that I move in, we are sometimes referred to as brujas and vampiros, if only in a superstitious way….possibly because we are “otherworldly” to the larger heteronormative culture.  Within my local pagan community, I can come out as an energy feeder.  I have access to both a local Goth scene and a BDSM community that I can freely come out to as a blood drinker.  Considering the many venues in which I can openly self-identify, I find it hard to relate so much to the absolute warnings against how carefully I must present myself.  As absolute warnings, they don’t necessarily apply to MY personal experience–and because of my social conditions, might even limit my freedom of expression.

On that same note, there seems to be an admonishment to many figures [I keep watching people point at each other] of the GVC representing us in bad light.  I’ve belonged to other groups where we were thought to be “all the same” by the “society” outside of those groups…so I’ve recently burned out on the idea.  As a Chicano, I never thought of myself as “typical,” so I knew I was never representative of all Mexicans or Mexican-Americans, even when I saw the stereotypical Cholo or token Hispanic on television or movies.  As a gay man, I am missing the standard superpowers of being able to cook, clean, dress nicely and arrange objects at 90-degree angles to each other.  Even as a Witch, I became quickly drawn to energy work, so I missed out on memorizing a lot of planetary correspondences of the props and tools that we are associated with.

By the time that I got to the Vampire Community, I quickly got over the idea that there is a standard image of the Modern Vampire, so I’ve come to understand that there could never really be a good representative to the nonVampiric world.  To understand what a Vampire is, there needs to be the frame of reference in which Vampirism makes sense.  Vampirism is kooky to so many personal belief systems and philosophies outside of the GVC.  How seriously can I take our internal complaints, when I’m aware that not only that we can’t agree on how we should present ourselves to nonvampiric society….but, also when I am aware that SOME PEOPLE are prone to pick out the “bad behavior” in all walks of life and take those to represent our groups, races, religions and types, anyway?

We’ll never have the perfect representative that we can all agree on.  And the argument that so-and-so is a bad representation rarely goes anywhere beyond a bunch of arguing, until it’s time to complain about the next person.  Talking about how we should stick to the shadows is a dead complaint.  Someone took the lid off of Pandora’s Jar and it’s too late to put us back in.  It might be more productive for those complaining to provide a “better” representation of the GVC, as they define it.  Even if we have many different representations of the Vampire, then at least we could make it clear that we are as varied as any other group or community–with our serious, well-spoken, sincere members as well as all the others.

Venting about a problem or situation is useful, if it is part of the process to coming up with possible solutions.  Complaining about something, without resultant action, is a waste of time that could have spent on other things.

I think that our debates and discussions are good, even if we do not agree on particular interpretations being the correct ones.  It keeps those ideas in the air.  It keeps information moving.  It gives newbies and searchers the impression that there are that many concepts floating around and that they would benefit from exploring them rather than just accepting the first ones they encounter as gospel truth.

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Edumucating The Masses: A Golden Apple For The Teachers

 

I love being part of the information network of the Vampire Community.

We share practical information about feeding, along with other material, to help Modern Living Vampires live healthy, fruitful lives. Another part of our function is that we educate the non-vampiric masses about the reality of what it is to live with vampirism–what it constitutes and what it does not.

Much of our information is readily available on our blogs, websites, online groups…a lot of it for free. But, how much good are we actually doing? Are we actually making a difference to anyone?

The amount of negative response seems almost overwhelming, at times.  It often makes me question whether I am offering accurate, helpful or positive information. For the most part, I am sharing my perspective as a completely personal one. I am going by my own experience and sometimes those of my friends, who also share their original content online.  I often reiterate that I am not any sort of spokesperson for the modern Community.  I am not a textbook Modern Vampire.  I also make it clear that while I have my ideas about what I consider Vampirism–there are many others who hold their contrasting and varying opinions and interpretations.

As part of an unofficial collective of writers, I am aware of the large amount of written and spoken material available on Sanguinism, Energy Vampirism and a variety of other vampire-related topics. It would seem that with all that information so easily accessible, one might think that we should have a lot more smoother interactions in our online and in-person groups.

I suspect that because I am so focused on information-sharing, on the groups that share information and the teachers and speakers…it seems almost odd to me that other people would come into the community and not want to focus on taking in as much information as they possibly could on vampirism, weighing it out and coming to their own working interpretation of the spectrum of experience.

As it currently stands, The Vampire Community and The Online Vampire Community are not carefully and rigidly structured–regardless of what they were ORIGINALLY intended to be. The Community is a loosely connected web of groups (virtual and in-person), people and events.

On the part of the teachers/educators and every other person that enjoys sharing information–my interpretation is that we share that information which we sincerely feel brings a benefit to other Modern Vampires’ lives.  The hazard is when we look for positive feedback to let us know that we are sharing relevant and helpful information.  We can make the mistake in assuming that the people who need our information the most, who benefit from it (immediately or in the future) are also able to articulate themselves or simply are not too shy to speak up.  It is difficult to speak through and hear through the larger amount of negative feedback, response and drama that floods the communication lines…simply because Modern Vampires are still human….and most humans are negative.

At risk of sounding cynical–it seems that there is a lot more negativity in this world than there is positive energy and encouragement.  Just by virtue of people tending to express more of this negative energy, we will run into more discouragement than encouragement from others.  This negativity seems to outweigh (and sometimes drown out) the positive reinforcement and encouragement that we also receive for our efforts.

When I share my observations and my perceptions, I speak from my personal experience.  I share what makes sense to me on an intellectual level.  I share which experiments I perform on a magickal, energetic level and which working conclusions I have thusfar come to.  When I come up against criticism and/or contrary views or information–I give myself time to process whatever my initial reaction/response is….then, I question and analyze everything.

On my side–I question whether what I share might be helpful to someone in a practical way.  By this, I question whether it might be some piece of information that someone could apply to their life in some way (on a mental, emotional or physical level) or that it might simply be something inspirational, affecting their mood in a positive way.

With any criticism that I receive for my articles, I do consider if there might be any truth behind that critique.  Before I consider those words, I look back at what I’ve written.  Is what I wrote relatively true, according to my interpretation of my personal experience and analysis of that experience?  Even if this personal account or interpretation is not common among the masses, is it possible that my account or perception might validate or be helpful to someone else in the world?  If the answers to my set of questions are that I was being true to myself and that I can honestly perceive that my information will find the right person that needs it at the right time for them, then I am at peace with my sharing.

How practical is it to reiterate the guidelines of common sense, disclaimers of safety and responsibility (physical and/or energetic) with each of my articles?  What about the idea that anything that I have to say could be “dangerous” or “unethical” to the reader or student?  My answer to that is that I won’t ever share anything that any reasonable adult would endanger themselves doing.  I am not responsible for any other adult not having common sense or using their ability to research any activity and its safety parameters before they engage in that activity.  I cannot be responsible for anyone’s recklessness or for someone who is not of their right mind.

If I had the responsibility to keep someone safe, I would be able to control what sort of information they had access to and what sort of activity they engaged in.  I cannot be responsible for someone that I don’t have control over.  Give me absolute control over someone, then I would be happy to be responsible for them.

As a teacher (someone who offers information), I will act in a way that is respectful and true to what I feel is right, at all times.  I do not need to perform in any way, with the intention of gaining approval…nor am I going to perform in a way of trying to gain someone’s disapproval, as a stealth act of rebellion.

Here’s where I admit that it gets tricky.  On one hand, I want the freedom for all Living Modern Vampires to be able to live freely in a way in which we can easily share information relevant to our real-life scenarios.  This includes being able to speak of, find and engage with willing donors and the uneducated/unenlightened vampires in a much easier fashion.  This would be the ideal.

However, while we are still working towards these ideals of safe/practical networking in the world, we need to be aware of what we are currently working in and with in the present moment.  What we are working with is a society of varying personalities, belief systems and prejudices.  In terms of the non-vampires, we need a certain degree of normalization of Vampire activity–to where we can reveal ourselves as necessary for purposes of practical function in the world and to make ourselves available to awakened/unawakened kindred, when we see it as fit, on a case by case basis.

As long as we educate with sincerity and constantly weigh the value of revealing and sharing information against any possible desire to shock our audience, we might be outweighing the negative feedback with benefits in the world.

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“Sweetie, Shouldn’t You Have A Talk With Timmy About Turning?”

One of the problems with the Online Vampire Community is that we don’t have the equivalent of a “children’s table.”  We have many groups in which we have mixed membership–seasoned, reasonable, mature, practical Modern Vampires…in the same groups as those who do not have a realistic view of modern vampirism.

Specifically, I am referring to those “aspirants” who request to be turned, no matter how many times we tell them that we won’t or can’t…or that being “turned” won’t get them what they really want.  The subject of being “Turned” can be a controversial topic.  It is not even a topic on which we all completely agree–whether or not it is possible–or even on how we should define it.

When we talk about the concept of Turning, some of us say that it has the classical meaning–to produce the condition of vampirism where it was not present before.  Others say that “turning” is more of an activation of the recessive trait of vampirism, to bring its symptoms into full manifestation in those who possessed latent vampirism.  In the classical sense, a formerly non-vampiric being is transformed into a vampire.  In the “activation” of latent vampirism, only vampires can be awakened, not non-vampiric humans.

Reasonable, practical members of the Community sometimes discuss the prospect of Turning–either and both forms.  We discuss the possibility of both forms of Turning in terms of Sanguinism and Energy Vampirism.  We sometimes even share personal or second-hand accounts which we think validate our belief or skepticism in the process, itself.  The problem comes when “aspirants” come in from a side angle, wanting to be Turned into vampires.

A simple request from someone who is young, uninformed and is NOT heavily invested in the belief of the Fictional Vampire; but is more of a vampire-fan is not that much of a problem.  It is when someone is insistent that they NEED to be Turned and so stubborn about wanting to be transformed into a super-powered Vampire that they will jump from person to person in the community, aggressive in their search to be Turned.

Here is the little problem–among the more analytical of us, in our discussions, we refer to Turning within the context of our larger understanding.  Among Modern Vampires, we have more of an intellectual relationship to the concept.  Those of us who are already Obligate Feeders don’t need to be “turned”.  Those of us who are not Modern Vampires, but are still reasonable and mature members of the VC, are usually not interested in being “turned” because those members know what a Modern Vampire is and are not confusing that with any Fictional version.

However, when the less-intellectual, more-impulsive, less-informed, more-delusional “aspirant” merely hears the word “Turned,” they take the mention/discussion as confirmation that the classical, fictional process is a reality.  Even when some of us explain that classical/fictional Turning is not possible OR that Vampires are not granted extraordinary abilities, these “aspirants” can’t hear anything beyond the word “Turned.”

These Wannabe-Turnees are thinking of POWERS, powers found in movies, television shows, folk tales and modern vampire fiction.  Should we be more explicit when we talk about “powers,” “talents” and “abilities” in front of the kids?  In the Magickal and Pagan Communities, when we refer to the “powers,” it is within the context of inborn or developed/exercised abilities.  I was clairvoyant as a little boy, because of spiritual karma.  I was born with a level of natural talent because of past-life karma or pre-life spiritual agreement.  The level of skill I have in glamour projection came with my conscious practice as a witch.  Although there are “rituals” available, most experienced magicians don’t take many “instant transformation” spells seriously.  In the Magickal Community, what is not recognized as inborn is earned through time invested, along with hard work.

In the Magickal Community, there is no quick fix or instant transformation.  Even in the seeming appearance of a magickal working having “instant results” or “miraculous effects,” it is because of preparatory work or pre-existing conditions which allowed for the manifestation of such change.  It seems that many Modern Vampires have backgrounds or understanding of these principals of metaphysics, so that we often do not feel a need to reiterate the details when we talk about “powers.”  The “aspirant,” sometimes coming into the middle of our conversations, comes away with an incomplete picture.  To the uneducated audience, we seem like we have super powers…abilities well beyond the range of non-vampiric magicians and psychics.

Also, let’s be completely honest, there are SOME of us that qualify as Modern Vampires–we have the genuine obligatory need to feed; observable benefits when we feed; observable detriments when we do not feed–AND despite this, still exaggerate or embellish on our real experiences.  Instead of bragging about how many push-ups we did or how little carbs we ate on our diet–our Community version is how we drank a two glasses of “red” every day for two weeks running or how we drained the lifeforce of the local church pastor, causing him to drop dead of a heart attack.  Exaggerated accounts are taken with a grain of salt or called out by other Modern Vampires, who have their own experiences to gauge the range of possibility against.  However, for those “aspirants” who have an emotional investment in someday experiencing the fantastical, WANT and NEED to believe in those exaggerated accounts.

Is there any reason to be more careful around the “aspirants”?  For the most part, I’ve noticed that the standard response is to attempt to educate or correct said people.  With such an emotional investment and need to believe in the possibility that they will have eventually have powers, once they find a “real vampire”….are they even in the state to where our attempts at education will sink in?

Here’s another factor to be aware of–with the “aspirants” strong desire to meet what they think of as “real vampires,” is it more likely that they will run into a genuine Modern Vampire?  What if the “aspirant” meets up with an unawakened Vamp or awakened Vamp….what happens when the Vamp is uneducated or under the same delusions?  What about when they cannot fulfill the desire of Turning–because the Vampire must “just be holding out”?  Instead of just responding to the requests of being Turned as the requests appear…would there be any benefit to directly addressing this particular group of Turning hopefuls in a different way?

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VWA: Vampires With Anxiety

One of the reasons that I didn’t initially relate to being a Modern Vampire is that I had high levels of anxiety.  In my mind, a vampire was a cool, calm, collected, and centered being who either had their feelings totally in check or didn’t feel any strong emotion at all.

As I became familiar with the members of the modern Vampire Community, I became acutely aware that anxiety–as well as all of the other psychological and emotional disorders–are just as common in modern Sanguivores and Psychic Vampires, as they are in any other special group.  However–role players, aspirants and outsiders seem to play into the idea of the Fictional Vampire being emotionally cold or overly controlling of their emotions.  Despite evidence of legitimate Sanguinism or the need to energetically feed, sometimes the presence of anxiety is taken as an indication that one CANNOT be a Modern Vampire.  There is the idea that a “real” Vampire is perfect and not subject to any of the human illnesses or disorders.

Looking at the defining characteristics for Modern Vampires, there is the obligatory need for a Sanguivore to ingest blood and for a Psychic Vampire to feed on energy from a donor.  Beyond that–the human history, psychological health, and physical health of the individual can vary.  There is no guarantee that the vampire in question will be free from any particular emotional or physical disorder.

Speaking for myself, when my physical health is off, I feel my anxiety levels rise.  I suffer from generalized anxiety and have panic attacks, with less provocation than usual needed for an attack when I am physically unwell.  Since my body seems to be more delicate than the people around me, I’ve noticed that just letting my physical body get too hungry, I will feel more anxious…when only a snack will help me feel better.

As in the case of many Psychic Vampires, there is a notable decline in physical health because of the correspondingly low amount of vital energy being available in the subtle bodies.  An energetically-hungry Psychic Vampire is more prone to anxiety because of the imbalance on the subtler levels.

An emotional imbalance in the Energy Vampire might make it a bit harder for the vampire to interact with possible donors.  Ambient feeding is most easily done when the feeder is not drawing attention to themselves–when they are not nervous in any way and can blend into the crowd.

Direct feeding involves gaining permission from the donor.  To get express permission from a Donor, one needs to first interact with said Donor.  Being anxious is most likely to scare or put off others.  Especially if the Donor is not intimately familiar with the possible human flaws (including, anxiety) of Psychic Vampires, the idea that the feeding vampire does not fit the cliché of the supernaturally-healthy creature of myth, might prevent a feeding.

If you are experiencing anxiety, by all means perform all of the practical remedies.  And, if you are an obligate energy feeder, perform feeding in which you do not have to interact with other humans, to see if this anxiety is primarily hunger-induced.  Ambient feed from locations and groups that have large amounts of excess vital and psychic energy.  Also, engage in astral feeding and pull in energy from as many natural sources as possible (solar prana, earth prana, air prana).  Keeping energetically nourished might help prevent hunger-induced anxiety and nervousness.

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The Power and Problem of Sarcasm In The Vampire Community

 

Here’s the problem–I can be a very sarcastic person.

(No matter which community I’m participating in.)

And here’s the good thing–my sarcasm is part of my humor and creativity.

I’ll admit that I’m not the most consistent person. I might fluctuate on my behavior, depending on circumstance, personal mood, what I’ve had to eat physically and otherwise.  And I’ll also admit that I will let friends and closer associates get away with more bad behavior than people that I might know more casually or not at all.

Here’s the situation–I have many moments when I care about being helpful to others. As a self-identified Psychic Vampire, I care about my fellow Energy Feeders and Blood Feeders. As a metaphysician and energy healer, I care in general about all people being healthy, happy and growing into their spiritual awareness.

AND…because I am not completely enlightened (yet), have a human personality and a dry sense of humor…I am not always completely altruistic. I have a wicked sense of humor. I believe that I can be helpful and caring, when it seems the most appropriate. But, some of my more sarcastic reactions are saved for my private walls–sometimes out of context, without revealing the prompting scenario.

Speaking for my own experience, it seems that even though I do want to be helpful and give useful information to fellow Modern Vampires and help spread factual/relevant information about modern understanding of blood/energy vampirism–receptive and intelligent audiences are not always uniform throughout the internet and in-person worlds. Even with the best of my intentions, sometimes the simple truth is that people DO NOT WANT my information, as I understand and offer it.

In the Vampire Community–“aspirants” ask to be “turned,” others want validation that they are born special, and still others simply want confirmation that they are Vampire–even if their working definition is different than mine. Others just want to be accepted as part of a Community. My general intention is to provide the actual blood/energy feeders with appropriate and practical feeding information, to offer alternatives to non-vampires (when they “want to be” vampires) and educate the public with my particular interpretation and understanding of modern vampirism. Those are my working ideals.

However–I’ve noticed that not everyone wants to be told that they are wrong with their self-identification.  Sometimes, members want to argue when I don’t give them a “quick solution” by turning them. Upon disagreeing with my interpretation, I’ve had people drop the conversation, repeatedly insist that they are vampires, insist that I turn them or just not follow through on the alternative suggestions I give them. At some point, it started to feel like a timed game for me–how can I give this person the most useful information in the smallest amount of time, with the expectation that this is the only time that they will ever talk to me?

I eventually got burned out on that idea. My observation of people in-person (offline) and online is that people can be way more complicated than what their surface actions and conversation shows. They can have heavy emotional investments in their ideas–what they WANT to be true. They might not have the conscious recognition of what the motivating factors are in their convictions, only the surface NEED to have their beliefs be true. Not everyone is reasonable or completely conscious in their interactions with those of us in the Community.

So….let’s bring this all back to the SARCASM in our online Vampire Community. There is no rule that everyone has to be welcoming, warm and kind to everyone that wanders into the Community. We have our individual rules in our individual online groups and houses–so, we have our range of responses to the comments and statements that come up in our online forums. There are some members that I tend to avoid in the OVC–I’ve blocked a few. There are other members who I tend to avoid responding to, because they just seem so abrasive. Then, there are some of my friends who can be a little abrasive, when presented with apparent trolling–but, will respond kindly to more believable newcomer questions and remarks. Personal interactions on our Facebook walls aside, I’ve noticed that the sarcasm tends to come out in two types of threads, in general.

The first type of discussion that comes up is that within a heated debate–sarcasm usually comes up in the form of “how can you possible think that?”-spirit of response. During a heated discussion, we are usually arguing among intellectual equals or, at least, between those of us who have strong backbones and thick skins. In this context, the fighting ground is relatively fair–the bigger boys and girls who can serve it, as well as take it. Sarcasm can be served both ways by people who can hold their own.

The second kind of scenario where sarcasm is used in our groups is in response to a single poster’s comment or question–in which the poster says something which is considered outlandish…or seemingly a statement that a troll or role player would say. A popular activity that I’ve seen is when a post will be answered by a lot of eye-rolling and “oh, this again”-kind of responses. The first problem I tend to notice with this is that there is an almost instant camaraderie that people try to form by ganging up on the original poster. Given, some of these claims, questions and comments might seem outlandish–but, I tend to be cautious of those that jump on the sarcasm thread to gain instant credit in a sort of “mob mentality.”

The system is not a perfect one–there are trolls, people who know perfectly well how self-identified Modern Vampires define terms and understand ourselves.  Trolls provoke by asking ridiculous questions, even though they might know perfectly well how we use definitions and how we understand concepts.  Then we have the people who genuinely do not know how we define terms and concepts, have a fantastical (fictional) view of vampires and vampirism….and are mistaken in their self-identification or want to be transformed into a Fictional Vampire.  Those two groups alone make legitimate members of the GVC defensive and sometimes combative, when we perceive someone who is trying to deceive our community.

The problem with this is that we sometimes make assumptions about how real Obligate Sanguivores and Obligate Psychic Feeders are supposed to behave and respond.

Although this is not a universal understanding, my personal interpretation is that obligation to feed does not guarantee any other personality or intuitive traits.  In my experience, I am an obligate energy feeder, so I am using my personal history as a gauge for what is possible (though, not an absolute) in the psychic vampire personality.  I perceive that I have always had a need to feed on energy.  I personally have not always had the same degrees of the same knowledge and information that can be found in a seasoned member of the Community.  However, I wouldn’t ask such outlandish questions in public forums, like some members do.

As part of the Magickal/Pagan Community, we would explore the limits of possibility in a methodical manner.  Claims of the paranormal and metaphysical were put to the test through reasonable amounts of time preparing and executing magickal technique.  Part of this framework for discernment translates fairly neatly over to the topics, claims and beliefs of the Vampire World.

While I tend to lean over towards giving people the benefit of the doubt, I actually rely on my harsher and less forgiving counterparts in the Community.  In the bigger picture, it seems that we very much perform the good cop/bad cop scenario.  The aggressive and abrasive of us call out those of us who might not be the most sincere.  And then there are those of us who are more gentle in our approach–we are the ones that will take in those that want the important teachings of the Modern Vampire.  Hopefully, those who really are obligate feeders have the instinct to find like-minded kindred and continue searching in the Community.  Maybe the push and pull of interaction in the Community is like the push and pull of washing the soil out of a dirty cloth–eventually, in all the motion, something will come out clean.

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Audience-Driven Vampirism Vs. Identification For Practical Purposes

 

Someone recently published a post about their take on Energy Vampirism. While I disagreed with some of the fundamental attitudes and conclusions–I thought that maybe the poster was reacting to so many of the role players that tend to find their way into the Vampire groups in our Community.

Perhaps, “role player” is not exactly the right word to use. “Poser” might not accurately capture the meaning, either. What I am referring to are those people who incorrectly self-identify (or self-diagnose) as Modern Vampires, when they might not fit the descriptions that many of us work from.

Necessity to feed is the defining factor in Modern Vampires. Modern Vampires have pre-existent conditions and a level of health that are alleviated/helped by feeding. Whether through ingestion of blood or consumption of particular energy, it is the necessity to take in either substance to receive health benefits. While any human being can ingest blood/energy, it is only those that receive observable benefit from doing so and have observable detriment from prolonged periods without feeding that we qualify as Modern Vampires, Living Vampires, Real Vampires or any other variation thereof.

There are quite a few people who make their way into the Vampire Community through the Metaphysical Communities. Here, we are talking about the general worlds of the psychic, energy workers, magicians and light workers. The motivation to study any of these arts and systems will vary. The most common reason to study metaphysics is that the student wants personal healing–either emotionally, physically or both.

While this might be a sincere justification for many of us to do anything in the world–as humans, it is almost an instinct to do things which bring us emotional peace…even if we do not do so in a logical, conscious manner. We are driven to do things which make us feel better–sometimes on a long-term basis; but, most often, it is more for a short-term, temporary sense of satisfaction.

One of the ways that we get our more instantaneous emotional fixes is through the experience of other’s reactions and responses. Here is where we can be equal across the board. Actual Modern Vampires and non-vampiric people can all still have the personality need for emotional validation from the other people around them. Whether we are vampiric or not, we still look for clues from the outside world instead of following our intuition or internal sense of correct action.

[Of course, I am speaking of positive or neutral actions, when I speak of any vampiric activity.  As a basis for any vampiric events, I only mean to follow through with beneficial actions or actions which do not affect another being in a negative way.]

An elder in the community once pointed out that there had to be a certain level of intelligence and self-awareness to be able to recognize that one is a Modern Vampire. Part of self-recognition should go way beyond the simplistic “I always felt like I was one” or “I always knew I was one.” If only because we are dealing with lifestyle changes and habits that can be so vitally important to the health of actual Modern Vampires, part of the process of self-identifying as a Vampire should be the conscious evaluation that one has the NEEDS of a Sanguine or Psychic Vampire.

Do I engage in any vampirism because it gives me observable benefits?  Or do I engage in any vampirism because I am looking for the reactions of any audience after/when I do so?

Is most, part or all of your identification as a Modern Vampire found or validated on the responses and reactions of others? Or could you still identify as a Modern Vampire, even if you researched the concepts quietly without “letting other people know” that you are a Vampire? [Pause. Read those last four questions a few times. Actually answer those questions on paper.]

There are subsections of the Vampire Community that focus on support and/or information.  Here, we are more concerned with helping Modern Sanguine and Psychic Vampires function and live in healthy ways.  In general, we are not so much concerned with “vampire royalty” or any “vampire politics,” as much as we are concerned with guiding, teaching and healing fellow Modern Vampires. As part of this loosely connected teaching web, some of us are also willing to help the mistaken and deluded give up their fantasies of being Feeders, when they are not.

If one is an actual Modern Vampire, the quickest way to living an empowered and healthy life is to focus on the health and feeding aspects of being a Modern Sanguine or Energy Feeder.  Looking for others to believe that you are a Vampire will only interfere with your focus and practice of healthy feeding.  If you look for an audience for your self-esteem, this is actually a flaw on the personality level.  Convincing numbers that you are a Vampire is a cheap substitute for self-validation.  (Even the Fictional Vampires of story and myth were more functional as discrete, stealthy, private creatures–their sense of power came from within, not validated by others.  Their focus was on keeping fed, not on impressing the masses.)

Arguably, it might be advantageous to reveal your nature or identification under certain conditions.  This is reasonable when it is in a one-on-one basis.  Reveal of information is logical and fair, when setting agreements for blood or energy donations–but for purposes of shock and awe, it is neither reasonable or in good taste.  The other scenario is when the Donor or Swan enjoys a bit of role play during donation.  This is up to the taste of the Donor–for THEIR enjoyment.  This is fine, as long as there are clear lines of what is role play (at the Donor’s request) and what is factual information.

If you are not an obligate feeder, trying to convince others that you are a Vampire will eventually fall apart.  Eventually, the evidence that you do not need to ingest blood or energy will come out.  The only power you will have (temporarily) gained would have been that high that someone believed you were something that you were not….that someone believed your fantasy.  Your time will be much better spent fortifying your self-confidence and self-esteem and actually practicing magick, the psychic arts or the energy work that will actually provide results in the practical sense.

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Sexual Vampires–Are They Really A Thing?

Some people believe that there is no difference between Sanguines and Energy Feeders–that there are non-vampiric humans in the world…and that we also have vampiric humans that can derive energy from blood or direct psychic energy feeding.  Other people believe that there are just energy feeders among us, which are essentially universal feeders in that they can derive observable benefit from most types of non-physical energy.

In terms of metaphysics, let us look at human needs from a more general perspective.   Not everyone incarnates with the same spiritual agenda, mission or purpose.  Whether we think of it as karma or trends set up by our higher selves (God, guides, consciousness), different people are thought to be born to focus on the various aspects of life.  Whether it is to be a nurturer, a good mother, a healer in the world…to learn lessons through romantic relationships, self-empowerment or to focus on crown chakra issues–as individuals, we are not all working with the same kinds of energies or even focusing on the same energies to the same degree as our surrounding friends and family.

Vampire, Modern Vampire and every other variation of the term are more of umbrella concepts that we work with as a community and an information network.  There is no guarantee that we are all the same kind of energy, psychic or spiritual creature….with the same kinds of spiritual mission or agenda.  It is entirely possible that while some of us are Psychic Vampires, it is simply because that is what we are born to experience in the general sense.  Under the metaphysical lens of understanding, some of us are drawn to conditions and activities of life because of what sorts of secondary lessons and focus they bring.

An energy feeder could be constructed (born) to focus/need sexual energy because of any number of other concepts that could be connected to that energy.  Perhaps a soul or consciousness needs to be focused on sexual energy because they need to work out karmic issues or misconceptions that they carried over from a previous lifetime.  Perhaps there is simply a pleasure in carrying on a focus where sexual energy was enjoyed, because it was a wonderful part of one’s previous lifetime.  Perhaps the sexual vampire is here to normalize and celebrate sexual expression, because it is such an important part of this particular incarnation.  In this sense, eros vampires could gain a very deep appreciation for this energy and help heal the local and global attitudes, which might currently be negative towards this energy.

There could be a wide variety of reasons why someone was born to focus or enjoy sexual energy in particular for this lifetime.

There are some modern vampires or metaphysical scholars who argue that there could be an imbalance from focusing on sexuality or spending too much time focusing on sexual energy.  These people often use the word “balance” and claim that any focus on one aspect of the human experience, to the exclusion of others, brings one out of energetic or spiritual balance.  If one was born with a weak grounding chakra, spent a whole previous lifetime very ungrounded or otherwise has some issue with physical existence or their physical body….in the bigger picture, over lifetimes, one is already out of balance and needs the extra attention on the base chakra to balance one’s OVERALL energy–which extends beyond, but includes, this one CURRENT incarnation.

It is entirely plausible that one’s soul/energy bodies/system could incarnate with the need to focus on one particular energy.  One such manifestation of this could be that one is born as an Eros Vampire–where one’s energetic, psychic health revolved around feeding primarily or exclusively on this one particular wavelength of spiritual energy.

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Bring A Salt Shaker When You Visit The Vampire Community

Last week, I had a very pleasant exchange with a young lady who was researching the Vampire Community, for a paper she was writing. I thought carefully about my responses to her questions. I wanted to be as helpful to her as possible. Even while I was trying to give her my perception and answers as accurately as possible, a part of me imagined the various perceptions that the many members of the Community would offer.  While I was sharing my experience and my interpretation, I made it clear that my views were not universally shared.  That while I came to my own frame of references, there were still a variety of others in the community.

According to my understanding, Psychic Vampirism can be explained as a set of conditions which someone incarnates into this physical reality with.  Our language for describing this condition is rooted in our worldview of the metaphysical interpretation of reality.  While energy leeching, energy manipulation and draining can definitely be practiced by any human being–the metaphysically-oriented acknowledge that some of us were born to be energy vampires for whatever pre-determined reasons.  One school of thought is that some of us had agreed to be incarnated as such psychic/spiritual creatures, just as some of us agreed to be incarnated with clairvoyant senses fully functioning or with the intuitive understanding of how to use particular spiritual skills.  Any and all of this, as opposed to having to learn how to develop these skills in a conscious, intellectual manner.

[On the note of Sanguinism, the metaphysical thinker might view that physically-oriented condition as more of a special dietary need, much like some bodies simply run better on certain diets.  (Then, we have the members of the Vampire Community who do not interpret either type of Vampirism through the lens of metaphysics…but, instead opt for a more materialistic or hybrid interpretation of sanguinism.)]

To the more serious seekers of truth, Real Modern Vampires (…and our friends and donors within the subculture…) see modern vampirism as based on the need to feed.  Either general type of Vampire will find detriment when they do not feed on a regular basis and will experience observable benefit when they do feed.

Accurate, practical information is vital to the continued health/healing of the Modern Vampire.  On the practical level, a healthy Modern Vampire is a positive, contributing member to their immediate social circle.  Any healthy being brings in benefit to their family unit, circle of friends and everyone that they touch in daily life.  An unhealthy Modern Vampire can range from being a negative influence on an energetic or emotional level to acting out physically, because of unstable or poor health.

Modern Vampires, who are new to the Community, should not come in expecting to immediately meet up with well-informed, helpful members of the Community.  Because we have no way of policing the behaviors and mental health of our loosely-knit subculture, there is no presiding council or set of rules which govern our members.  While one would love to believe that the Vampire Community is as well organized as the Vampire hierarchies that we might find in fiction and media….and that every Modern Vampire is as worldly, educated and mystical as the vampires of storybooks and movies….

No.  Just, no.

The problem that newcomers have is that they can be very much in need of information….so in a sense, it is fair to consider them ignorant or innocent…whichever you prefer.  Sometimes, this need for information might translate into a desperate hope that they will immediately meet with a well-informed vampire…and therefore, there is sometimes an immediate trust in the first members that they meet.  There is sometimes the assumption that they will be immediately educated and enlightened by these new-found “authorities and experts” on any and all subjects.

There is an illogical trust and immediate validation granted to other members of the VC because they might very well be well-spoken, familiar with the topic at hand, part of any online group, and/or part of an in-person organization (House, Coven).  Sometimes, because the new member NEEDS to believe that they have finally found someone who can help them, they immediately project the illusion of all of this wisdom into the vampires that they meet.

Perhaps, as responsible guides (and unofficial mentors) in the VC, we seasoned members might be of service to continuously demystify the community, by emphasizing that the new members come in with as conscious an agenda as possible.  I realize that this might take out some (or all) of the romanticism that the dark art- and vampire mystique- groups find so vital.  However, there are some of us who have put ourselves into the Vampire Community to find and share that practical information that would be most helpful to those authentic kindred who would benefit from knowing it.

As a psychic and a magician, I almost cringe when I hear people say that they hope to “learn whatever they can,” without having a clear direction about what they hope to find.  This might seem to be the most diplomatic and open way of approaching information–perhaps there is the implication that they will not prejudge or filter anything that comes in.  With this attitude, they might expect that they will not miss out on any unexpected pearls of wisdom.

As a magician, the problem that I have with this attitude is that by not choosing a focus, the newcomer is open to mass amounts of useless information which will not only distract from practical help, but which might also help reinforce others’ delusions.  A Real Modern Vampire needs to know how to function in a practical and healthy way in their world, not fill up their time with fashion advice or role play.

As an adjunct to that, we need to acknowledge that Real Modern Vampires are still very much real humans with a variety of real personalities.  While there might be tendencies towards particular strengths within ourselves, we metaphysicians need to emphasize that Energy and Blood Feeders are still in need of practical psychological and emotional health.  Although this concept is debatable, in my opinion, it is not required that we come into the Vampire Community, posing as calm and collected and as innately mature as the Fictional Vampire of myth and legend.

Modern Vampires are still human, and still have the same emotional issues as our non-vampiric counterparts.  We need to be careful that we are not trying to fill our emotional voids with elders, houses or any other elements of the Vampire Subculture.  We are still dealing with people–a variety of people…who while they might have valuable, practical and inspiring information to share…also, might be acting out of their personality flaws and needs, just like the rest of humanity does.

So, keep in mind that while the next Modern Vampire might seem to know things…that is not the same as actually offering anything useful.  While the next Modern Vampire might have a group/House/Coven, it means only that they have a group of people….it says nothing about their character, personality or level of wisdom.  Do not confuse time and conversation for emotional fulfillment and knowledge.

When you come to the Vampire Community, bring in that bag or container of salt and take a grain with each interaction you engage in.  At the very least, you can make a circle of salt to keep the ghoulies out of your personal space or scatter a handful, so you can run while the monsters are counting the grains of salt.

Kidding.  Just kidding.

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Being A Vampire, Role Playing A Vampire & Vampire Modeling

 

So….I’ve been reading about the more spiritually-oriented Vampires, lately. As I understand it, this description is that of the type of spiritual being (a spiritual Vampire) who cannot seem to stop being spiritually-oriented. This sort of creature tends to be ungrounded and feels most comfortable contemplating the spiritual world, the mysteries beyond the physical, the causal worlds that correspond to this world. The non-physical worlds are the most logical reference points of causation to this type of being.

Yeah….I relate.

The danger with reading metaphysical texts (such as astrology, for example) is that we can often not read information with an objective eye or mind. Instead, we might WANT to relate to a description so much that our mind tends to run on a presupposition factor. Am I really a spiritually-oriented being like it says so in this paragraph? Or is one part of my mind reacting to the subtle questioning of another part of my mind, by using its automatic search function–which means that when posed with a question, the mind searches its memory logs for relevant information…even going so far as to include imaginary information because it runs  under the assumption that such relevant data exists.

As a metaphysician, I have learned to be a lot more careful about how I take in and look for information. Even when I feel myself relating to a description of a specific type of spiritual being, I evaluate not only whether the qualities or traits applied to me before I read the description….but, whether it might be valuable to relate to the description as a working technique.  I take extra care to keep those two concepts separate and within the contexts which best accommodate each one.

When approaching the adoption (or assumption) of any new type-description in this way, how I treat the possible identification with this information is very different than how I treat how I currently see myself.

As a metaphysician, I view the True Self as what others might call “the Soul” and the earthly personality as a creature very different from that. There are many popular terms–Soul, Spirit, Spiritual Self, Essential Self, Higher Self….which some people use interchangeably.  Others use these terms to describe various aspects of higher consciousness, each a little different from the next. I understand that the Soul is the self-contained aspect of ourselves that is Self-Validating, Self-Fulfilled and Whole. The pure state of the Soul is that which cannot be transcended, because it is what is left when all ego, mind and individuality is transcended.

Any concept which is based on separateness…anything in relation to something else seemingly outside of the individual self…is part of the Earthly Self and part of Earthly Life. Our self-identification in terms of personality–which also includes our vampirism or otherkinness–is part of the current earthly incarnation. Any quality, traits and characteristics of individual/human/earthly existence will eventually be transcended upon enlightenment and are therefore temporary in the grander scheme of things.

Through the lens of metaphysics, when people want to know “who they are” or “what their identity is,” they generally take one of two approaches–they meditate on the nature of the eternal Soul (that which is beyond the human identity) or they meditate on the thoughtform of their current human personality (which is a relatively temporary construct).

Depending on your base assumptions about reality, there are some human qualities which are deep-rooted in your belief system (and essentially unchangeable during the span of the current life incarnation) and then there are the changeable physical, mental and emotional qualities. In metaphysics, there might be soul contracts that are the grounds for having unchangeable life conditions….so that secondary growth in another area of life (understanding, strength, consciousness) can take place. In general, we tend to heal conditions and situations to the best of our abilities. When we cannot heal these conditions directly, we look for the blessings that come from accepting the situation and/or the possible strengths that come in other areas of life.

In terms of “who we are” in this current human incarnation, some of us might be born Vampires (of whichever type) for whatever reasons. This might be for positive reasons or to give the individual opportunity to strengthen other aspects of their earthly life because of the condition. When we are born Vampires, it is one of those scenarios which is “unchangeable,” in accordance with the agreement we made before the incarnation into this current personality in this current lifetime.

The gathering of Vampires into our specific community groups to discuss our personal histories and current conditions as Vampires helps those of us who have incarnated with those conditions and life-scenario of Energy Vampirism or Sanguinism or both. We gather to discuss these obligate conditions (“unchangeable”) for practical reasons–to share information which makes navigation through the current incarnation easier and better. In general, this is one of those things that the obligate feeders do to make their conditions better.

As a metaphysician, I see a positive ripple effect from making one’s personal existence as a Vampire better. When one is a more functional being, one has more time and ease with which to share one’s life wisdom and practical information with other obligate feeders. In the case of spiritually-oriented Vampires, we are in a better place to be positive in general towards everyone in our immediate (human) communities. Even if we are not directly sharing the wisdom of spiritual life or energy health, just by being positive human beings, we are contributing that positive energy to the society around ourselves.

To know how to be more functional Modern Vampires, we need to share relevant, practical information among our own kind and to draw on the wisdom and knowledge of our elders of the community. In this case, we need clear communication between those of us who have had authentic/authenticated vampiric experience among our kinds.

This is why we need communion with other Real Modern Living Vampires, that have very real experiences of energy or sanguine feeding.

That being said–there are non-vampiric human beings who have the psychological need to identify with experience which might not have been natural for them before they read about it. By this, I am referring to those of us who did not have a previous history of any definite vampiric activity, but that see value in “becoming” such a creature.

At this point, I am beyond telling people that they shouldn’t misidentify….or at least, shouldn’t jump or stretch to justify the idea that they are some sort of special being (such as a Vampire). As a metaphysician with the sincere desire to help others heal, become empowered or evolve–I acknowledge that some people at a certain level of consciousness want the quicker “fix” from magick or metaphysical technique….even if it doesn’t affect their awareness of truth on a deeper level.

On an instinctive level, non-vampiric humans can tell that identifying with Vampires can cause a shift on a non-physical level. NLP covers this concept as “Modeling.” On a psychological level, imagining yourself as a Vampire allows you to express those qualities that you mentally associate with a “Vampire.” You are giving your psyche permission to identify with qualities it might not have considered part of your personality before. Someone imagining “what it is like” allows themselves to try on such qualities as powerful, confident, strong (for example)….whatever they associate with their personal image of what a “Vampire” is.

Full Modeling (as in the NLP process) can shift one’s personality traits for the positive in the long term. The more consciously that one performs this process, the sooner and the more permanent the shift becomes at the Identity level. Active Modeling is the most direct technique for shifting self-identification. However, through role play the psyche mentally “tries on” becoming the “Vampire” through the duration of that role play. This seems to be close enough to the process of Modeling for the Role Player to enjoy a temporary mental, emotional or energetic shift. But, because there is no conscious, intentional Anchoring in this positive state, it is not a permanent psychological shift.

Because there is a temporary payoff in the elevation of the emotional state, it is highly appealing (and pleasurable) for the Role Player to continue playing their fictionalized version of “the Vampire.” The “what if” aspect results in enough emotional  payment  to encourage continuing to Role Play–it is almost like being a character in a fantasy scenario. Whether or not there is reinforcing feedback from anyone external…another role player or a reactive audience…it is very similar to a live-action version of meditating or daydreaming. Even if there is no confirmation from others, the role player has the scenario in which to mentally entertain the ideas that others might be reacting to the “Vampire” qualities that they presumably embody and emanate during the duration of their role play.

The role player’s mind entertains and mentally tries on the idea that the external society is reacting to their “Vampireness.” Even if this is only at the mental level–the body reacts to these thought processes–just as it might react to watching a movie, television show or reading a book.

There is (and has been) emotional payoff for Role Playing–whether that Role Playing was intentional and conscious or more in the shape of a delusion. Role Playing in the Vampire Community is trying on the personality traits that one associates with the personal interpretation of the Vampire character. This is simply feeling empowered on a continual, even if temporary basis. However, the emotional recall of the elevated state that occurs during role play can occur during any, non-role playing time, as well. The more that any mental-emotional state is practiced, the easier it is to recall and stay in for longer periods of time….even outside of meditative space (….role playing space being a variation of this). Role playing might be hit-and-miss, as far as creating short-term shifts in consciousness….but, I venture to say that its effects might be somewhat comparable to the beginning stages of engaging in meditative or magickal practice. Short, sporadic meditation periods with scattered focus.

Because there is the appeal and a payoff from role playing, it seems to be a wasted effort to discourage the practice, in and of itself. I will venture to say that the “fun” that the role players get out of role playing is that elevated feeling that comes with the “accidental” change of emotional state. On the contrary, I would encourage the role playing to continue outside of what they consider areas that they are designated for role playing.

Role playing could be a form of preliminary meditation on the positive associations of the Vampire archetype. Rather than sporadic, broken, unfocused meditation on the qualities of the Vampire–intentional practices might bring about permanent change in personality, as well as permanently elevated state of emotion. To do so–structured, intentional guided meditation in private and Modeling in real-life (not role playing) situations will help someone express and cement these positive qualities into their personality, on a permanent basis.

In Role Play, the Role Player speaks, responds and acts in relation to others…usually with fantasy details that the analytical mind cannot relate to.  Everything is an external act within a Role Playing scenario–dialog and sometimes exaggerated mannerisms.  In Modeling, the Role Player identifies with the archetype internally, while they act externally in their mundane life–keeping realistic boundaries and capabilities in mind, they present the belief system with new, relatable ways of behavior. Shifting from play-acting, pretend escapism to silent, internal “how would a Vampire handle this situation?” questioning will lead to long-term, real-world satisfaction.

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Psychic Vampirism As Description Of Conditions Vs. Fictional Vampirism As Delusional Thinking

 

I sometimes wonder if my life would have been easier if I had been born to parents who had similar philosophies and beliefs. My metaphysical ideas and convictions about reality make sense to me–more so, because I’ve questioned their validity and practicality in my life. Whichever metaphors and paradigms I use, I do so because they make my life easier to understand and navigate. Whichever concepts that do not serve me on a practical basis eventually get weeded out and changed for other ways of perceiving and working with the world.  I’ve built up my framework of reference over time.

And this is all on a mental level.

In the terms of the Modern Vampire Community (Subculture), I think of myself as a Psychic Vampire or a Vampire, when I refer to the particular concepts and details that I understand as belonging to either “label.” This reference comes up in conversation with others or when I am mentally recalling concepts such as energy feeding…or any other topics which are directly connected to energy health or work.

When those of us come to the GVC from or through the metaphysical communities, we come in with a particular perception, a particular way of viewing things.  We often recognized pre-existent conditions and behaviors (that relate to energy) before we even hear of the term “Psychic Vampire.” We might have noticed the particular conditions of low personal energy, automatic feeding and such as individual factors….but, come to identify as modern Psychic Vampires, once we find the subculture of people who unite under this general label–because we have similar energy structures, conditions and behaviors. We have these conditions in mind and unite because we have them in common.  Ideally speaking, what we are doing is clarifying what are our general behaviors and, in turn, suggesting more productive activities.

In metaphysical terms, we are not TRYING to be Psychic Vampires. We notice similar or exact behaviors and are NOTICING that we are generally the same.  We gather under a community that, for particular reasons, call our kind “Psychic Vampires,” at this time.

In our terms, we acknowledge that any being can move energy and utilize energy for specifically intended purposes. However, “Psychic Vampire” describes that type of energetic human which has the specific need to feed on the vital energies of other humans. We derive benefits from doing so, benefits that do not come from feeding on other types of spiritual/psychic energy. We experience detriment when we fail to do so.

Any human being can and does move spiritual and psychic energy. We use the term “psychic vampire” to describe a being that incarnates with the need and drive to do so, with built-in impetus to perform this activity.

From my time in the Modern Vampire Community, I have come across many people who appear to be role-playing because of their request to be turned into Vampires–as they assume Vampires to be. However, these people who request to be transformed are not role-playing in the sense that they know that they are lying, kidding or playing a part. For the most part, while they are unrealistic in their expectations of what Modern Vampires are, they are sincere in their desire to be transformed into the creature that they want to be transformed into, that they HOPE is real.

Many (if not most) Psychic Vampires are familiar with metaphysical and magickal laws. As mages, psychics and occultists–many Psychic Vampires strive to be as realistic as possible with what we can do in this world. In the Pagan/Magickal/Energy Worker communities, we do have our unrealistic members who expect manifestations to occur in ways which defy physical laws of reality….but, these people are not counted among the serious students of metaphysics and the occult teachings.

When we perform magick and other energy workings, we experiment and take note of how we ACTUALLY affect reality on the physical, energetic and objective levels. Sometimes, we need to stretch beyond the current personal limitations of our mental and emotional convictions in order to manifest something that we previously DID NOT BELIEVE IN. However, we understand that we incarnated into a manifest reality with particular physical laws. Even if we hear about yogis and saints which seem to bend and break the laws of Nature, we are realistic about how much time we can practically spend in meditation and practice to perform our own versions of “miracles.” If we accept that we can’t spend three years meditating in a cave, we do not expect to physically transform matter in unrealistic ways.

From my time spent in the Modern Vampire Community, I’ve come across many people who have requested to be transformed into “real vampires.” These people seem to be convinced that the fictional vampires of television, movies and literature are what exist. Being as I’ve never run across any of these super-powered mythical creatures, I have to say that….for all practical intents and purposes….they do not exist.

In my combined time in the Pagan/Magickal Communities, the Energy Workers/Healers Communities and the Vampire Communities….what phenomena that can be considered paranormal or metaphysical has impressed me, but falls far short of the special effects of vampire stories and movies. Our paranormal/magickal effects fall within the high range of skill of any well-trained psychic, magician or manifestor.

That is what we are concerned with–practical manifestations that make one’s human life better or more enjoyable in some way. As Psychic Vampires, we help each other work with energy to become healthy, highly functional beings. We do not encourage wasted effort or expenditures of energy which do not result in some very real payoff.

Those people who petition to be transformed into vampires are often not concerned with making real-life change. Most of the people who have asked me to turn them are interested in a very quick, VERY EASY solution to whatever they think being a (fictional, super-powered) vampire will get them. I’ve offered to teach them magick or metaphysical technique. Some of these people initially took me up on my offer, but every one of them soon dropped the lessons–after every one of them indicated that the metaphysical lessons were taking too long and not giving real-world results quickly enough. For the most part, more people were not interested in learning magick, psionics or metaphysics. They were insistent that they wanted to be “turned” into vampires.

I’ve tried to determine WHY the “aspiring vampire” wanted to be changed into their fictional version of the vampire. With every intention of being as helpful as I could, I felt like I had a very limited amount of time to give the aspirant the best piece of advice before they cut me off, because my perception of help was not what they had in mind. Although it is not my responsibility to do anything for anyone, much less give them something practical when they outright reject it….I have come to the working conclusion that that is the response that is the most natural for me.

The unrealistic fall in love with fantasies of being transformed into otherworldly, ultrapowerful creatures with the idea that once they are transformed, they will be able to make very real-world changes in their own lives. It is unreasonable and illogical thinking. I have to make my most intuitive guesses about the reasons that the aspirants want to be transformed, since I get very little feedback from them, even when asked directly.

Again, as an energy healer, my personal intention is that I want to be as helpful as possible. Even if I only have a small window of opportunity to give a concise and quick bit of feedback, this scenario happens often enough that I find value in refining my response for the next “vampire aspirant” that finds me.

As a metaphysician, I have to assume that if the aspirant were serious about empowering themselves and finding practical solutions, they would be more willing to take me up on my metaphysical advice.  However, because almost everyone who asks does not follow through on my instructions or “alternatives” to being turned into an instantly super-powered being….my working conclusion is that these people are not actually interested in solving or resolving any personal situations.

Chasing after solutions which lie outside the current realm of possibility can serve to stretch one beyond one’s current boundaries and limitations.  This is the purpose of reaching beyond what is currently real–to force one’s self to evolve and discover untapped personal resources.  If an aspirant became strengthened or personally transformed in their pursuit of personal power, then the metaphor of the Fictional/Mythological Vampire was a useful one.  If nothing but wasted effort and frustration came out of asking multiple people (of the Modern Vampire Community) to be turned or to point one in the direction of “real vampires,” then the subconscious intention of the aspirant might be to keep frozen in place, to allow the problematic life-situations to stay in their position, and to actually keep experiencing any negativity or negative effects that those original life-situations represented or justified.

When viewed through the eyes of the metaphysically-oriented Vampire, the bottom line of the Modern Vampire Community is that, at the core, we are here to offer support and information, and to make life easier for all of us.  The majority of those that ask to be turned are at a level of understanding which is mainly belief in the fantasy of what Vampires are.  The emotional attachment to a quick solution (at surface level awareness) and the deeper emotional identification with their problems which prompt their fantasy of wanting to be turned are way more real to them than the interest in wanting to investigate the truth of what Modern Vampires really are.  The time and effort spent in arguing with these “aspirants” is useless–they are not in the mindset to be “educated” when their emotional investment is so high in their fantasy.  Focusing on their personal issues is at the same time, much more practical because it helps them face their real issues and is a deterrent from them asking for the impossible.

“Why do you want to be a Vampire?” is a lot more useful than focusing on why they can’t be.

 

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