Someone recently published a post about their take on Energy Vampirism. While I disagreed with some of the fundamental attitudes and conclusions–I thought that maybe the poster was reacting to so many of the role players that tend to find their way into the Vampire groups in our Community.
Perhaps, “role player” is not exactly the right word to use. “Poser” might not accurately capture the meaning, either. What I am referring to are those people who incorrectly self-identify (or self-diagnose) as Modern Vampires, when they might not fit the descriptions that many of us work from.
Necessity to feed is the defining factor in Modern Vampires. Modern Vampires have pre-existent conditions and a level of health that are alleviated/helped by feeding. Whether through ingestion of blood or consumption of particular energy, it is the necessity to take in either substance to receive health benefits. While any human being can ingest blood/energy, it is only those that receive observable benefit from doing so and have observable detriment from prolonged periods without feeding that we qualify as Modern Vampires, Living Vampires, Real Vampires or any other variation thereof.
There are quite a few people who make their way into the Vampire Community through the Metaphysical Communities. Here, we are talking about the general worlds of the psychic, energy workers, magicians and light workers. The motivation to study any of these arts and systems will vary. The most common reason to study metaphysics is that the student wants personal healing–either emotionally, physically or both.
While this might be a sincere justification for many of us to do anything in the world–as humans, it is almost an instinct to do things which bring us emotional peace…even if we do not do so in a logical, conscious manner. We are driven to do things which make us feel better–sometimes on a long-term basis; but, most often, it is more for a short-term, temporary sense of satisfaction.
One of the ways that we get our more instantaneous emotional fixes is through the experience of other’s reactions and responses. Here is where we can be equal across the board. Actual Modern Vampires and non-vampiric people can all still have the personality need for emotional validation from the other people around them. Whether we are vampiric or not, we still look for clues from the outside world instead of following our intuition or internal sense of correct action.
[Of course, I am speaking of positive or neutral actions, when I speak of any vampiric activity. As a basis for any vampiric events, I only mean to follow through with beneficial actions or actions which do not affect another being in a negative way.]
An elder in the community once pointed out that there had to be a certain level of intelligence and self-awareness to be able to recognize that one is a Modern Vampire. Part of self-recognition should go way beyond the simplistic “I always felt like I was one” or “I always knew I was one.” If only because we are dealing with lifestyle changes and habits that can be so vitally important to the health of actual Modern Vampires, part of the process of self-identifying as a Vampire should be the conscious evaluation that one has the NEEDS of a Sanguine or Psychic Vampire.
Do I engage in any vampirism because it gives me observable benefits? Or do I engage in any vampirism because I am looking for the reactions of any audience after/when I do so?
Is most, part or all of your identification as a Modern Vampire found or validated on the responses and reactions of others? Or could you still identify as a Modern Vampire, even if you researched the concepts quietly without “letting other people know” that you are a Vampire? [Pause. Read those last four questions a few times. Actually answer those questions on paper.]
There are subsections of the Vampire Community that focus on support and/or information. Here, we are more concerned with helping Modern Sanguine and Psychic Vampires function and live in healthy ways. In general, we are not so much concerned with “vampire royalty” or any “vampire politics,” as much as we are concerned with guiding, teaching and healing fellow Modern Vampires. As part of this loosely connected teaching web, some of us are also willing to help the mistaken and deluded give up their fantasies of being Feeders, when they are not.
If one is an actual Modern Vampire, the quickest way to living an empowered and healthy life is to focus on the health and feeding aspects of being a Modern Sanguine or Energy Feeder. Looking for others to believe that you are a Vampire will only interfere with your focus and practice of healthy feeding. If you look for an audience for your self-esteem, this is actually a flaw on the personality level. Convincing numbers that you are a Vampire is a cheap substitute for self-validation. (Even the Fictional Vampires of story and myth were more functional as discrete, stealthy, private creatures–their sense of power came from within, not validated by others. Their focus was on keeping fed, not on impressing the masses.)
Arguably, it might be advantageous to reveal your nature or identification under certain conditions. This is reasonable when it is in a one-on-one basis. Reveal of information is logical and fair, when setting agreements for blood or energy donations–but for purposes of shock and awe, it is neither reasonable or in good taste. The other scenario is when the Donor or Swan enjoys a bit of role play during donation. This is up to the taste of the Donor–for THEIR enjoyment. This is fine, as long as there are clear lines of what is role play (at the Donor’s request) and what is factual information.
If you are not an obligate feeder, trying to convince others that you are a Vampire will eventually fall apart. Eventually, the evidence that you do not need to ingest blood or energy will come out. The only power you will have (temporarily) gained would have been that high that someone believed you were something that you were not….that someone believed your fantasy. Your time will be much better spent fortifying your self-confidence and self-esteem and actually practicing magick, the psychic arts or the energy work that will actually provide results in the practical sense.