Mental-Level Experience: How Real is Real?

In the Vampire Community, we are constantly having a back and forth on who is a “real vampire” or arguing about who’s experience is “real.”  The reasons for this are varied.  Without trying to create a new label for myself–although I can’t promise I won’t do that later–my reasoning is that I want to organize practical information for the various feeding types, so that basic health needs are met.  That is my main agenda.

The more serious metaphysical students analyze and dissect information for purely practical purposes.  Even though it might seem odd to use the word “practical” when speaking about metaphysics, we use this term to cover the techniques and information which can be applied to our personal lives to create some sort of discernable change or effect.  The serious metaphysical students and healers can see the different types of practices that the various sorts of members of the Vampire Community have, without finding one type or the other as superior or inferior.  Division and dissection are used to analyze what the individual needs, before targeting the specific information that can best serve them.

Within the realm of the Psychic Vampire, we work with the unseen world of psychic, spiritual, astral, vital energy.  We discern the activity on this level with internal, non-physical senses.  From outside of our subgroup, it is easy to see why skeptics, materialists and non-metaphysical thinkers throw us into the same category as the Role Players and the deluded.  We have so many self-proclaimed Psychic Vampires that run the range of expression from detailing astral experiences in long, boring retellings to the melodramatic gesture-filled physical demonstrations of ritual feeding.

There are self-proclaimed Psychic Vampires who speak of their alleged non-physical activities to audiences who do not have the same common reference points of reality.  Talking about psychic energy, energy bodies, astral planes and such to people who simply do not accept these concepts as valid or real in their world does not create a bond from information sharing.  It simply cements in how crazy we are, as a group.  Sharing is only helpful if the audience is receptive and can accept the reference points as valid to the person who is sharing their information.

Here’s my personal kicker–even though I have a metaphysical background and I work with these concepts, I find that I don’t necessarily accept all reports and accounts as “real.”  During the process of writing my last article on Role Players, I had to question why I don’t necessarily (internally) validate absolutely everyone’s accounts of their energy activity.  I had to explore which framework I had come to build, based on my own internal journey of working with my perceptions.  And I had to question why my framework of reference is still useful for me–AND how much value there is in sharing the framework that I had come to build as my process for evaluating what is valid in my perception of the world.

Within my time in the Magickal/Pagan Community, I have come across many people who invest a lot of emotion or invest self-identity in their “astral” experiences.  These people will share their recollections with others–often with the underlying need to provoke some sort of huge reaction or revelation on the part of the listening audience.  They want the listening audience to have some profound reaction about the speaker’s “specialness.”

Taking my own experience as my reference point, I have had mental experiences which could be considered “astral” or “imaginary”.  Some of these mental experiences started off as visualizations, meditations or guided healing journeys.  Some were spontaneous or happened in dreams.

My personal interpretation is that imagery and revelations that come up in these mental/astral storylines can be as useful or useless as dreams.  The relative truths in these scenarios can be reflective of old or current thought processes and beliefs–sometimes erroneous or disempowering convictions.  Other times, the hidden messages in these mental adventures can reflect the hidden strengths and potentials that are universal to all beings–not something only special to a few.  I would not claim that I was a humble being, exactly….however, I have learned that everyone else has potential access to the potential strengths that lie within all of humanity.  In this way, I have come to believe that people who are in need of proving or validating in some way that they are Special (more valuable) are actually hiding insecurities and need validation from their fellow humans.

To the metaphysical student, there is no reason to prove that any spirit or human is more Special (and therefore more valuable) than any other being.  In metaphysical thought, every being is a direct reflection of the Wholeness of Spirit.  Every spirit has access to all the blessings of The Divine, so no one needs to earn anything outside of our Divine Birthright, which is all of the blessings of Spirit.  There is nothing to earn, because it is all already ours.

The need to be Special is an erroneous thought-process of the limited human ego.  It is the inability to see access that we have access to Cosmic Consciousness, at all times, regardless of circumstance. The need to be Special comes from the idea that the individual is not already One with Spirit and already “Special” to Spirit.  The bruised or damaged ego believes that they are inferior or undeserving in some way.  To counterbalance this conviction, the mind spins out extravagant storylines on the mental level–in which one is “more special” than others by getting special audiences with or treatment by the gods; is part of a special bloodline; has super powers (either on the mental or astral realm only, OR locked-up potential that cannot be accessed in the physical plane); or just some sort of interesting storyline of events that is played out in the imagination.  These “special” details could either be kept to one’s self….but, more often than not, will be shared with others.

When Magicians and Metaphysicians perform acts of magick or move non-physical energy, in many cases, we want some sort of effects on a practical level.  There are schools of thought that dictate that some acts of magick are done only (or primarily) for spiritual evolution….but, even in that case, some of the guideposts for spiritual evolution are that the emotional body and all of its negative reactions are calmed and cleared.  When we are more peaceful, we are able to have more of what we consider “spiritual experiences.”  On the practical level, Psychic Vampires do what we do because we find better health in our physical bodies, calmer emotional bodies, vitality and well-being that we cannot find through other methods of energy work or otherwise.  We feed on particular energies because we perceive corresponding benefits on the emotional and physical planes.

When we perform magick, we need to see results in the physical world.  In some cases, we keep performing magick even if we only have emotional payoffs.  An emotional level benefit is well worth the effort, in this world.  Astral work, mental journeys, meditations and visualization are only worth it if there is some sort of positive effect from these workings that we experience in the emotional or physical dimensions.  To the metaphysical practitioner, there is a correspondence of sorts because we can link the emotional shift or physical manifestation to these mental/psychic activities…time and time, again.

When there is mental activity with no corresponding activity in the emotional or physical dimension, magicians consider that a sort of failure in intention, targeted focus or ideal goals.  Self-proclaimed Psychic Vampires who have supposed astral or mental level activity without the same corresponding physical/emotional benefits that other Psychic Vampires reap from feeding….are not having actual Psychic Vampire experiences.  In metaphysical terms, what we call “deluded” is simply Mental Level activity with no corresponding activity or benefits in the emotional or physical dimensions–but, with the claim that those mental level activities mean something in relation to other levels.  An exaggeration of the benefits to the physical or emotional bodies relative to the amount of Mental Level activity is also seen as delusional.  What we might think of as “crazy” is a disproportionate judgement of value, as opposed to clear discernment of benefits proportional to mental efforts.

This is not to say that all metaphysicians should entertain all first-hand accounts of other’s mental experiences as valid or valuable.  Metaphysicians work with discernment.  We analyze to see how to use information in a better or useful way, before we pass it along to others.  But rather, a better understanding of why some people are harder to listen to will at least defuse the discomfort that we feel when given a drawn-out or seemingly meaningless report of mental/astral activities.

Along the lines of “seemingly meaningless,” perhaps it would be more accurate to say that some people’s accounts of their mental activities are not practical.  Given, some astral journeys can at least be entertaining, relieving some stress.  In that sense, the astral journeys were helpful….if not to relieve some long-term problem, some reprieve was given.  There was some temporary relief to the emotional body.  Furthermore, to repeat the story might sometimes serve as some light entertainment to the receptive audience–best case scenario, there might be a vague inspiration for the recipient to have their own positive astral journey.  Worst case scenario is that the receptive audience is bogged down by the details, waiting for a punch line or a revelation, and there is none.  It’s a gamble whether one will be inspired or bored.

A long meditation with no emotional transformation or manifestation in the physical world is roughly equivalent to performing regular acts of magick with no effects (healing) in either the emotional or physical levels. Even performing magickal rituals or energy healings for spiritual awakening mainly involve emotional clearing of some sort….arguably, the biggest thing distracting us from spiritual evolving is our negative emotional activities.  There are such things as useless or impractical energy work, magick and astral activity–depending on the level of practicality that we are intending and how much we wish to effect the emotional and physical worlds.  The more serious of the metaphysical students in the Vampire Community focus on the those activities which produce the greatest demonstrations of health in the emotional and physical bodies.


Role Players In The Vampire Community–My Reaction To “A Brief Interlude: Why It Might Be Time to Abandon the Masquerade”


As I started reading A Brief Interlude  (, it suddenly occurred to me that so many of us in the Vampire Community have our opinions….and that we’re very loud about them.  For those of us who are vocal, we each speak as if our observations or perceptions are the correct ones–or at least, valid enough to be given serious consideration by the masses that we share them with.

Do all of our opinions on each matter hold the same weight? Yes, no and maybe. I think that we should consider how the individual is ACTUALLY interacting with and in the Vampire Community.

Let’s be honest. How much weight does my word hold? I almost exclusively interact online. I have my little blog page. I have and participate in a handful of online groups. I have my friends and colleagues in the community. If I have an opinion, insight or vote in any matter which involves or concerns other members of the Vampire Community….how much influence do I REALLY have?

Which lines do I stand behind?

Do I have the right to vote on anything involving Houses that I never visit, public events that I never attend, nightclubs that I never go to or ANYTHING concerning other members of the Vampire Community that I will never interact with on a face-to-face basis?


It seems that we’re all constantly putting in our two cents about policy. So, if everyone else is doing it…so will I.  Even if I will never interact with the majority of the members of the GVC, maybe my offering my observations on the activities of our various aspects of the Community might be helpful to some of those that hear it.  Even when it might be seen as a negative opinion about keeping divisions between particular types of members.

Why do some of us want to make the distinction between Role Players and Modern Living Vampires, anyway? Why don’t we just hang out in the same clubs, go to the same events and just stop making separation between any of us in the Vampire Community?

Practical reasons.

Psychic Vampires….just like energy workers, magicians and psychics….want to discern between actual non-physical events and perceptions and that which WE would consider purely “imaginary”. At base level, we are already working with a handicap–we need to be even more cautious with the tools with which we observe and measure our non-physical experiences, because they are fallible and easy to misuse, if we do not take extra care in our collection of data. Psychic Vampires are noting past personal experiences, current experiences and even conducting our experiments with energy and psychic phenomena. What we consider “purely imaginary” are those activities which are completely occurring ONLY on the mental level, without affecting any or having corresponding activity on the physical/etheric levels.

True Psychic Vampires notice the correspondences between internally/subjectively/psychically perceived events and externally/objectively perceived phenomena.  We see how one world affects the other.  And we have enough personal justification to keep observing the world, this way.

We wish to share information with others who are having similar experiences and similar approaches in handling their personal observations….that is, with other Psychic Vampires and those who perceive reality in similar ways. There is something to be said for someone more experienced sharing their personal experience and history. Not that all advice will apply or be taken to heart…but, having someone share their actual psychic experience, as accurately depicted as possible, adds to one’s database of what is possible within their own experience.

Whether we are speaking of ourselves as a particular type of human or in terms of having an experience potential to all of humanity–when we speak of non-imaginary events, we are sharing information which could potentially be applicable to all others. When someone does not know or understand the distinction between the types of non-physical events AND they are speaking of imaginary events (mental level-only) as if they actually affected physical, etheric or psychic levels….when they did not….this information is misleading and adds false information to the database.

Role Players, by definition, deal with a fantasy or exaggerated accounts of possible events. They are not concerned with actual depictions  of personal experience or accurate information regarding personal history. Role Players deal with a storyline, not anything that could be used in practical ways or anything that could be applied to someone’s life.

Given, there can be benefits to role playing. It can be entertaining. It can lead to stress relief or lead to elevated emotional states, which can later be transferred to real life or non-role play scenarios. However, role playing (especially, vampire role playing) is not always appropriate for all venues. Talking about being a 300-year-old immortal might be not be acceptable in Sunday Catholic mass services. Sharing how one supposedly bit into the neck of local callgirls might not be appropriate conversation over Thanksgiving turkey. There is a time and a place for all things.

Within the chatrooms of the Psychic Vampires, we exchange information that is relevant to those of us who perceive these psychic/energetic conditions which some of us are born with. The majority of us who are serious about exploring the psychic and astral realities of our conditions are more than happy to share whatever information we have. In addition, for those of us serious metaphysical students, we wish to collect and analyze information from others, as well.  Role Players, by definition, do not deal with careful observation, perception and analysis.  They deal with fictional storytelling.  Their input into our collective database adds incorrect data, which is useless or misleading to those of us who want to work with our psychic perception and experiences in practical ways.

I often hear that our current version of the Modern Vampire Community has some roots in the Role Playing Vampire Scene–that it was through the Role Playing/Gaming scene that Real Modern Vampires met each other and divulged their real vampiric practices.  There are references to the Role Playing/Gaming scene and  Goth clubs as being integral to the formation of what we know as the modern Vampire subculture.  Part of the support for this idea is that today, both the Role Playing scene and the Goth scene also double as gateways for the GVC, because of the overlap of members involved in all of the communities.

As far as networking goes, some of us more information-oriented members of the Community have much less interest (or at least, less focus) in the events scene.  Clubs, balls and other social venues are great outlets to meet donors–both sang and psy, alike.  However, for purposes of keeping our databases as close to accurate as we possibly can, we need to keep out those who are not having actual vampiric experiences  This includes the need to feed and the benefits that come from that feeding.  Role Players know that they are not actual sang or psychic feeders.

We no longer rely on Gaming and Club scenes as the only places to gather.  The world has changed.  We can respect the roles that the various venues have played in our history–but, with the internet, we connect and interact in completely different ways.


Researching Psychic Vampires: Sharing Perceptions, Observations and Best Guesses

I recently opened up an informal research and study group.  My intention is to collect information from my fellow Psychic Vampires and Energy Feeders.  It’s not so much that I have the intention of collecting numbers, exactly….although, if something interesting came up in terms of statistics, then of course, I’ll share that.

My approach is going to be more creative and inspired than that.  I might discover general trends, something that needs repeating.  But, with so much standard information available on energy vampirism…I wonder if maybe there was room to look for the details that some of us might be missing.  Maybe the more creative of us, magicians or artists, experiment with imagery or technique.  Maybe, there is an insight from someone who meditates…something that might not be so obvious to those of us who do not have so much time for structured reflection and contemplation.

I was very open about my intentions for starting my informal research group.  I have every intention of giving back to the community (subculture) that offered me guidance and support.  I plan to share whichever gems I discover, whichever insights other psychic feeders generously share with me.  Even though we are just starting on this new project, I am already inspired by all of the possibility.

This reminds me of when I used to lead guided meditations…when I helped run metaphysical workshops.  Part of the rewards of teaching, passing along the information that we’ve learned, is that it reinforces the memory of what we have learned and it gives us the opportunity to look at the same information yet another time–possibly to see a different angle or understand the same information at a deeper level.

There is no way to verify that everyone I come across will be an actual Modern Psychic Vampire, as I understand what such a creature is.  And there is no way for me to verify that absolutely everyone understands and interprets their experience in the same way that I might.  And that is wonderful.  I know that I will cross paths with people who are having very real psychic and energetic experiences that are comparable, if not similar, to mine.  And then, there will be people who are having experiences which, while still internal and subjective, are more “imaginary” because they are limited to the mental level.  Even if someone is having a purely mental-level experience, hopefully some of our information can be modified to be used on that level for their self-healing and growth.

My interpretation is that Psychic Vampires are dealing with and having experiences that are to the extreme of what is possible (and happening to some degree) within the realm of all humans.  We are just experiencing the same phenomenon on energetic, psychic and spiritual levels to degrees higher than our non-vampiric human counterparts.  (Or maybe, it might be that we are just more conscious of the same processes.)  Whatever we come to understand and know can be applied on smaller levels to any and all non-vampiric human experience.  We can offer insight about human’s psychic, etheric and spiritual experiences because we are immersed and forced to become more active members on these levels.  The more that we learn and unravel, the more that we can offer to the non-vampires around us.

As I seek to explore the generalities of our kind AND the special insights specific to some of us, I will grow as a psychic and spiritual being.  It is my hope that we grow together as we share and explore these wisdoms.

We can objectively measure how the human race has evolved on physical and mental levels.  If I can use my personal evolution as any indication of what is possible for others in a general way, my working hypothesis is that Psychic Vampires have evolved over time, as well….and that we keep evolving, as we put the conscious effort into it.  Hopefully, in our research project, we not only come to a more intimate understanding of what we are up to this point, but also consciously shape what it is that we want to become.