Obligate Feeding Vs. The Vampire As A Spiritual Creature: A Metaphysical Exploration

The common interpretation of the Psychic Vampire (in the Modern Vampire Subculture) is someone that needs to take in external human-sourced vital energy to maintain their personal health. The justification for this process can range from the Psychic Vampire having a faulty energy system to simply not being able to generate enough personal energy to maintain personal health.

In this model, one might view the Psychic Vampire as being in a state of unhealth or illness. However, within the same model of “eating for health,” it could also be argued that all humans take energy from external resources for a variety of reasons. And judging Psychic Vampires for taking in larger amounts from other humans is arbitrary, judgemental and hypocritical–in light of humans taking energy from other life forms (including humans) and also consuming animal flesh without permission.

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On that note, unawakened Psychic Vampires could arguably not be aware of any psychic, astral or etheric levels of reality…but still auto-feed or intuitively feed (and not possess the language to explain or understand it). At base level, a Psychic Vampire could have a passing understanding of the metaphysics involved, but function at the level of “feed to live” or “feed for health”—meaning that they are perfectly satisfied with not expanding beyond the functional level of psychic vampirism or the need to understand metaphysics beyond a very base level.

On the other hand, we have those who perceive the Modern Vampire as a more evolved psychic and spiritual being. To them, this creature does not “eat for health” to affect the physical, etheric or emotional bodies. To the more spiritual interpretation of the Modern Vampire, it is the NATURE of the Modern Vampire to take in blood and/or energy–but, not necessarily because of the need to maintain physical health.

The Modern Vampire As A Spiritual Creature takes in blood and/or vital energy and energetically transforms it into higher spiritual energy. This spiritual energy is then used to help the Vampire open up to newer levels of personal spiritual understanding or evolution. This is comparable to the psychic process of transforming sacral/sexual energy and cycling it up for the higher spiritual centers to use–transforming base energy into spiritual energy.

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[Here, we are exploring the use of energy by the metaphysically-oriented Vampires. Treatment of blood-only Sangs and Med Sangs is not covered in this discussion, as they are analyzed outside of the realm of metaphysical interpretation. Spiritual Sanguinism, as it is the metaphysical perception of blood-ingestion, is included–but, only when the Modern Vampire uses the metaphysical interpretation of Modern Vampirism…not the materialist interpretation of the blood-only Sanguinism. Also, we are excluding those energy workers who have no need/detriment associated with vampiric feeding, but still practice predatory energy feeding for magickal use.]

When comparing Obligate Feeders against the idea of the Modern Vampire as a Spiritual Being–the main difference is that an Obligate Feeder needs to feed in order to maintain minimal basic physical health; whereas the Modern Vampire as a Spiritual Being does not need to feed to maintain basic physical health, but instead is driven to feed as part of their nature….and transforms that energy into spiritual fuel for personal evolution.

From personal observation, the Modern Vampires who perceive themselves as Obligate Feeders seem to outnumber those of us who perceive that they are born Vampiric Spiritual Beings. It might be the more popular stance for the Obligate Feeders to defend that they are working at an energy deficit or are somehow irrevocably damaged in their energy systems, so that their main focus NEEDS to be on feeding–THEREFORE, also holding the idea that all of that vital energy must go towards maintaining that physical system that will never be healed, healthy or self-reliant.

From a metaphysical standpoint, is this accurate? Are there some energy systems that are and must stay in this “unhealable” state for the entirety of one’s current personal physical incarnation?

Metaphysicians and magicians aim for the perfect state of wholeness, while acknowledging and working through the human limitations that temporarily keep them from realizing that state of perfection. Arguably, we can consider the need to feed on other’s vital energies as comparable to an allergy or need to take a particular supplement, because the physical body doesn’t process it very well. A sort of “special diet” on a non-physical level.

Within the framework of Metaphysical philosophy, an illness or some other peculiarity can SOMETIMES be seen to be caused by the need for a lesson of some sort–perhaps there is something to be learned directly by said conditions or the conditions create some secondary effect that wouldn’t be present, otherwise. [Possible questions to ask yourself as a Modern Vampire are–What are the benefits to me being a Modern Vampire? What am I doing as a Vampire that I would not do if I were not a Vampire? Who else am I benefitting by being a Vampire? Which positive actions am I contributing as a Vampire?]

Seeing the Energy Vampire as an Obligate Feeder only, infers that there is little to no interest in spiritual evolution–or perhaps there is nothing more than being a psychic entity who just ingests (takes). If this is the case, working within this framework, I advise making sure that the particular causation for the particular energy vampirism is not fixable. If it turns out that it is a case of Temporary Vampirism because of an energy body issue [leak, damage, deficiency, etc.], exhaust all healing possibilities through exploring every aspect of energy healing that is available. Engage in every modality that you can practice. Receive every healing treatment that is available, within financial capability.

If, after every healing system has been exhausted, then it might be practical to assume that the vampiric condition exists at a level that is non-negotiable for the soul’s purpose or growth….and needs to keep in place for deeper reasons in the Vampire’s current incarnation.

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On the other hand, we have those of us who perceive vampirism not as the need to take in external energy for physical health, but as the tendency to take in external energy for the purposes of converting it into a sort of psychic and spiritual energy for the higher centers. This more Spiritual version of a Vampire does not suffer from a hunger per se, but instead finds it more comparable to a “drive” or “instinct” to take in energy in order to transform it.

Here is where we have yet another difference of opinion. There are some Obligate Feeders who insist that it is the need to consume that defines them as Modern Vampires. The need to feed (for actual health or sense of wellness) makes their vampirism a non-negotiable part of their being. Because it is not so much a necessity to feed for vitality or health, some Obligate Vampires view the Spiritual Vampire as not having a necessity to engage in energy vampirism, in the first place–and therefore, vampirism is not being a necessary part of the latter group’s system. Because it seems to be more optional, some critics see the Spiritual Vampire as something more of a non-vampiric energy worker, able to drop the practice of energy work because it is not a driving necessity for health.

In other words, it might be seen as more of a learned and optional practice that is applied consciously, not an instinctive/inherent part of one’s self–in the case of the Spiritual Vampire.

Arguably, one of the biggest clues that one is an Obligate Energy Vampire is that one auto-feeds. Usually, the evidence for this is that others visibly react to the Energy Vampire’s auto-feed or will remark on it, if they are energetically aware enough to sense it.

In the case of one being the more “spiritual” version of the Vampire, it is not that one is experiencing a physical or energy deficit that prompts one to feed. It is more of a matter that after feeding [ambient, touch, eros or blood], one instinctively transforms that energy and immediately finds their consciousness propelling into higher intuitive and psychic realms of consciousness. The more spiritual version of the Vampire tends to shift their consciousness into higher realms, using the fuel of other’s energy to propel them. We can think of this process as something comparable to raising energy from non-human sources to fuel a spell or some other act of magick…taking energy from an external source to manifest a result or shift circumstances, in some way.

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Regardless of which appeared first in history or which was first labeled a “Vampire,” we have two types of psychic/energetic creatures which appear in the GVC.  One which feeds on other human-based sources to supplement one’s physical/etheric well-being.  [In a way, this is comparable to the physical ingestion of animals or plant matter–eating for health.]  The other psychic creature feeds on human-based energy sources to fuel one’s spiritual propulsion….in a way which is comparable to magicians pulling on external energy sources to fuel magick or manifestation.

My immediate response to determining whether one belongs to one group, the other or neither is basically the same that I have in determining other qualities or classifications in the metaphysical realm.  I question whether some concept can possibly apply to me by exploring its potential applications retroactively.  [Of course keeping in mind that false memory and the presumptive search factor of the brain could be fabricating evidence, based on how I pose any questions in meditation.]

From there, I explore the possibilities that the categorization in mind might not be the best explanation after all–and explore alternative explanations, as well as entertaining the possibility that I could be completely mistaken, misidentifying or trying to “stack the evidence” to make myself “fit into the category.”

In the context of my personal spiritual evolution, I take particular categories of such spiritual classifications and work with them to see if they add value to my life as a spiritual being.  Being an energy vampire can be seen as classifying one’s energy system in a particular way, so that we can then work with it in a more conscious manner. This can be compared to classifying one’s self as a clairvoyant, clairsentient, psychic generator or such.  Any concept which helps one focus on energetic tendencies and needs of a particular energetic or psychic type, in order to keep healthy and balanced.

That aside, is it possible to be both “types” of psychic/energetic creatures? Both “types” of Vampires?  Is it possible to be one, then be the other?  Arguably, it would be possible to grow out of being an Obligate Feeder, if one’s energy vampirism is temporary.  If one’s causation for energy vampirism is healed or alleviated, then obligatory feeding can cease.  Within the principles of metaphysical healing, this is not unheard of.  Rather than a more straightforward repair of energetic structure [damaged chakra, meridian or energy body], it could be a karmic reason for energy vampirism that is finally relieved.

Just as with any and all illnesses and conditions viewed through the metaphysical lens, there is probably not a singular cause for energy vampirism which accounts for all Energy Vampires.  I am merely bringing up the possibility that this might be the case in some instances.  On the note of raising one’s consciousness, it is a working concept in metaphysics that the more that one works with higher Divine energies, healing can occur as a side-effect of dwelling in and channeling the more positive vibrations.

In the case of Energy Vampirism being a temporary vampirism, it is possible because of the higher spiritual work of the Vampire that enough of the right kinds of energy come in and heal any temporary vampirism.  In this scenario, the activities of the more Spiritual Vampirism heals obligatory temporary vampirism.  Just some food for thought.

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Where Have All The Vampires Gone?

It seems like the more vampire imagery I see, the less authentic modern vampires that I encounter.

When I first came to the GVC–within the context of my self-identification as an Energy Vampire/Psychic Vampire–I expected to eventually find myself in multiple groupings of like-minded individuals. Within these tribes, I expected to find friends and acquaintances who shared similar experiences and comparable circumstances. I assumed that the elders of the community would tell the stories of their lives, illustrating how to not only live comfortably, but also how to thrive as a vampiric human and spiritual being.

If I had never found the Vampire Community–I assume that I would have eventually found, carved out or stitched together my own personal community within the groups of magick or energy workers. I would have found kindred in the Fae Community or even within some of the Otherkin Community.

Apart from ever wanting to use the terminology of the Vampire Subculture…or ever being in love with the Vampire Archetype…OR being so in love with the Fictional Vampire that I neeeeeded to make it part of my personal narrative–quite a bit of my internal experience, perceived psychic experiences and perceived energy/spiritual reality matched up with the other metaphysicians who were self-identified Modern Vampires. I began to think of myself as a “Vampire” in the same way that my fellow metaphysically-oriented, self-identified Modern Vampires defined themselves, based on our common perceived paranormal experiences.

The working definition that I had for Spiritual/Psychic Vampires came from the people that first introduced me to the Community. Because of my desire to explain my experience, share stories and put together my personal understanding of my non-physical reality–it was important that I work with relatively firm definitions on what my like-minded/fellow/kindred are. Working with the looser definition of “Oh, you’re a Vampire if you feel like you’re one” didn’t work for what I needed to find (my truth) within the Community.

[Real Sangs, being born with particular conditions and needs to be met for functionality, seemed to be the physical parallel to the Energy Vampire–so, they were easy to relate to.]

I’m not sure when it happened, but at some point, I noticed that there was less focus on information sharing and talking about the personal experience that defined Modern Vampirism in the Online Vampire Community. Along the way, I have managed to pick up a few very wonderful friends that I am convinced are Real Modern Vampires–Psychic, Spiritual and Sanguinarian varieties–because of the stories that they share.

At the beginning of my stay in the Subculture, what I wanted was a sense of community, even if I didn’t consciously understand what that meant. As I look objectively at what people seem to need from the community, I now notice a bigger focus on the same emotional needs that can be applied to any social group, regardless of that social group’s main theme or defining characteristics.

People want to feel accepted, included, validated or made to feel special. These are very human needs–they are also needs that people erroneously rely on other people to give them, sometimes without even having clearly delineated the criteria for “making” us feel accepted, included or special.

Many online and in-person groups seem to be more fandoms than gatherings of Real Modern Vampires.  Even if we do not need to discuss practices of modern vampirism every single moment of the day, it is valuable to know that when we do need to discuss it, that we have other people who can give us feedback because they have or have had similar experiences.

Even if they are not fandoms per se, some people join “vampire groups,” using the Vampire as a symbol almost like Satan is a symbol for some Satanists.  These are people who do not quite fit in with the crowd–whether it is because they do not have the same mainstream interests or because they are the nerdy, strange or socially awkward.  [Not to say that some of us Modern Vampires can’t also be nerdy, strange or socially awkward.]

At any rate, I am not disillusioned with the GVC/OVC as a whole.  It is my working assumption that this is how it has always been–a small number of Modern Vampires swimming in a sea of the misidentified or outright role-playing.  I perceive myself as a Real Modern Vampire navigating through this amorphous Subculture.  I know that I am not the first and I assume that I will not be the last.

There are Community Elders, seasoned veterans who are way more relaxed than the rest of us, because they understand that it isn’t worth it to get all riled up over every little discussion or argument that pops up.  They stick to their corners, their houses or websites and don’t worry so much about being active in the larger online or in-person community.

They live their lives, communicating with those who visit their neck of the woods.  Having large numbers in our groups isn’t nearly as important as maintaining contact with those who share the same vampiric experience.  It is not as important to be going around in circles with those that are trying to prove that they deserve the label of “Vampire.”

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My Vampirism and Spirituality

I was going to write about the drama going on in the GVC, again–but, after reading the intro to Julia DarkRose’s upcoming book and a very thought-provoking post by Seth Ananda….I felt inspired to focus on more spiritual topics.

The concept of The Vampire is not necessarily linked with that of any form of spirituality.  There are those popular, media and mythology associations which depict the vampire simply as a feeder–of blood and/or energy. If there are any paranormal qualities expressed by the vampire,  they are inherent and inborn, as soon as the vampire is turned. In urban legend and stories, the Vampire is a metaphysical creature and has no need to exercise, develop or gain its abilities.

In The GVC, some of us might hold the above perception to a more reasonable degree. Whether or not the vampire is a naturally metaphysical being, we hold an entire spectrum of ideas about spirituality as it might relate to modern vampirism.

I don’t pretend that I am any sort of expert. I am not any spiritual master, nor ancient vampire who holds the wisdom of the ages. Just like many other people,  I talk about my personal experience, which I observe and analyze, using my perception and preconceptions.

When I think of spirituality, I refer to the working definitions I’ve come to after years of my personal, evolving understanding of  my metaphysical studies.

We sometimes define spirituality as an intuitive or instinctive process of recognizing spiritual activity through our inner knowing. While I do not personally discount the possibility of this aspect–I can’t validate it in an objective way, so I’ll leave discussion of that to a minimum, while I discuss other angles.

Personally, I can think of my earliest conscious concepts of spirituality as a purely mental process–a thoughtform that we individually construct–or as an intellectual translation of the intuitive sense of spiritual realities.  In my understanding, we can correspond either one easily to the other.

My earliest conscious conception of spirituality was tied in to my earliest teachings of religion. I was raised Catholic, with stories of saints, angels, virgin births and beings come back from the dead. The stories of magick included miracles, God/Jesus/angels/saints personally fulfilling human requests, intercession, spontaneous or long-term healing….all that was supposedly still possible in modern times if I followed orders, behaved correctly and kept petitioning (asking, begging, negotiating). I might not get what I asked for, but this was the proper and ONLY procedure–the ONLY route to take.

Spirituality, magick, physical manifestation and emotional satisfaction were all tied into each other. Physical wealth and worldly happiness were dependent on God granting or withholding them. “Spirituality” involved following rules that were impossible to completely follow, with possible intermittent rewards and, most likely, a lot of punishment for not being able to follow all the rules perfectly, the first time.

Here’s where my plot eventually got twisted as a child–I found some of my father’s books that he might have forgotten about. There was some Carlos Castaneda and a few books on East Indian spirituality. I don’t remember the exact timeline, but it was around the same time that I also discovered some of my godfather’s new age books.

My ideas on God and the construction of the universe began to change.  As the years went by, and I was exposed to various ideas, my viewpoint opened up to a lot of other possibilities.  I’ve all but thrown out the conviction that my childhood model of religion (Catholicism) was the absolute authority.  My concept of Spirituality has changed and become more refined.

When I think of how spirituality works, I  start my conception from the Top-down.

My concept of absolute reality is that the spiritual reality of it is that I am completely one with the Substance of Spirit. There is actually no distinction between my “self” and the ultimate being known as The Creator. At the highest level, there never was any actual separation.

How I understand individualization (or manifestation in human form) is that we purposely chose to believe in our personal limitations, at a deep mental and emotional level–that is, we consciously chose to ignore aspects of our true identity in order to manifest as human in the physical world.  Instead of conscious being as Unlimited Love (without object or subject), we chose to believe that we could only love other specific beings when specific criteria are met for specific “types” of “love,” depending on personal relationship to those specific objects of our “love.”  Love from the Divine perspective is very, very different from what we call “love” in human relationships.

Within the model of multiple layers/levels of reality, where there are energy bodies which are our vehicles for expression on the varying vibratory levels (dimensions or planes)–everything below the level of Oneness is necessarily based on the illusion of not being conscious of our being Oneness.  Therefore, we can define “spirituality” as simply the conscious awareness of that Oneness.

Since everything below that level of Oneness (Spirituality) is based on the illusion of not believing in that Oneness, we are dealing with the illusions of fragmentation, separation and duality.  Exploring black and white, good and evil, negative and positive for the purposes of reuniting (balancing) them is reaffirming that there IS fragmentation and separation, which are not qualities of Oneness to begin with–and are simply putting more power into the conviction of the reality of the illusion.

No judgement at all on the goodness or badness of anything, here.  I simply want to make the distinction between Magick and Spirituality.  Magick is movement of the perceptions and convictions of independent reality of everything below the level of Oneness.  Spirituality is simply the awareness of that Oneness.  Magick can calm the emotional waters, which distract us from realization of Oneness.  Magick can calm the reactions and conditions which distract us from Oneness, because we have emotional and mental investments in being obsessed or concerned with the physical world and personal, interior worlds.

Magick can be a vehicle towards spirituality, IF used to change perception about absolute self-identity as Spirit.  Magick can be a deterrent to spirituality, if used in any other way to reinforce obsession with physical, mental or emotional realities in ways which do not make spiritual awakening easier.

Where am I at in terms of Vampirism and how it relates to Spirituality?  If we think of Energy Vampirism in basic terms of feeding and energy nourishment, once I feel satisfied and emotionally calm after feeding, I can refocus on Spirit and its emanations, such as Peace and Love.  I am not as distracted by hunger on energetic or emotional levels.  This is how it relates to those who define Vampirism on the basic level.

There are those of us who define being Vampires in more spiritual terms, beyond just feeding.  Some of us feel that what SOME of us are can be defined as a more spiritually-oriented creature that is distinctly different in our makeup and drive than the feeding-only creature that also takes the label of “vampire.”  In this case, it might not be only (or at all) the same process/need that the sustenance-only vampiric creature identifies with.  One interpretation for the Vampire-AS-SPIRITUAL-CREATURE is that they take in the energy/blood to use as fuel for spiritual evolution.  This reminds me of other spiritual traditions where personal sexual energy is taken from the lower chakras and cycled up to the higher chakras, especially the crown, for spiritual awakening.

[As I’ve brought up before, my stance is that the GVC includes both types of feed-only and spiritually-oriented psychic identities who both gravitate to the Subculture.  Not that there is one “true” type of Vampire, exactly….but, that we have varying types of energetic humans who come to the GVC, under the umbrella term of Modern Vampires.]

In the case of the Vampire who is a sort of spiritually-oriented being, I would have to say that I resonate somewhat with that concept.  Just because an energy worker can work with healing energy that corresponds to the etheric body, which affects the physical body–there is no guarantee that they are experiencing Oneness.  Even the higher Love feelings that one experiences from doing a healing might be dependent on the idea that one is being helpful in a personal way.  While this positive concept can eventually LEAD TO a spiritual experience of Oneness, helping another person heal might be tinted with the ideas that the healer was an important factor to the healing (personal ego involved); there might be some sort of compensation for the effort (expecting the healed individual or the universe to give something back, based on personal action); or that somehow energy is limited or lacking….and therefore not omnipresent and in abundance.

Working with non-physical dimension energies is Magick, up until we come to the Spirituality-level awareness of Oneness.  When used with focus, Vampirism can lead to spirituality,  but is not necessarily spiritual in itself.   Lower level energies are based on limitation, not Oneness.

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Self-Identification Questions for Sangs, Psys and Otherkin

While this list is not meant to be definitive, like a pass-or-fail exam or a checklist, it can be considered a starting point for more accurate self-identification in any of these three categories.***

When considering if one is a Sang Vampire, use the following questions to help navigate the next steps in remaining healthy–

What are my body’s noticeable physical benefits from ingesting blood?

Do I have any noticeable physical detriments when I do not ingest blood?

Desire to ingest blood aside, what are the physical benefits that I experience when I actually do ingest blood?

Fantasies of biting or violent extraction aside, do I experience a physical benefit from blood drawn in a safe, clinical manner?

If I could have a regular, clean blood donation without any of the role play or fictional scenario found in movies, would I still be interested?

If regular blood donation came with the insistence that I keep it private and not attend any public vampire events or vampire groups, would I agree to the conditions?

Do I have an emotional investment in being seen as a Sang by others, even if I have a lack of evidence to support any benefits in blood drinking?

Do I have an emotional investment in seeing myself as a Sang, even if I do not find any evidence to support any benefits in blood drinking?

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When questioning whether or not you would be a Psychic Vampire, start with these questions or variations thereof–

Have I noticed any observable benefits when I consciously feed on external sources of energy?

Have I noticed any detriments when I consciously withhold from feeding on external sources of external energy?

Do I feel any need to tell people about my energetic feeding habits?  Do I rationalize excuses to divulge my information when it is not actually necessary?

Is it important for me to classify myself as a “vampire” of any sort?  If I found useful information from another resource that didn’t use the label “vampire,” would I be okay with that?

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When exploring whether or not one is Otherkin,  start by exploring these questions–

What is my reasoning for believing that I have a soul other than a human soul?

Is my perception that I have a non-human soul because it makes the most sense or is it a symbol for not relating to the other humans around me?

Is my life made better by the realization that I am non-human-souled or is it going to make my life more complicated by working with this information?

Am I really non-human or is that a symbol for feeling displaced or unsatisfied in some way?

Is it true that I am non-human or could my Therian/Otherkin self really be a spirit totem or other kind of spiritual being or energy that I am incorrectly identifying as “myself,” when it is actually something external to myself?

Would I be comfortable working with the information of my non-human identity, if it meant that I couldn’t share it with the community at large?

Do I look forward to the revealing of my nature because it is controversial or puts me in a fringe community?

Do I want to be Kin-identified because it automatically puts me into a group that relates to me?

Am I attracted to the idea of using my identity as an excuse to complain or brag to others?fox-symbolism-fox-spirit-animal

This is by no means an exhaustive list of questions.  Part of identifying the possible nature of oneself is by also exploring that one might not be what one initially suspects.  It is entirely fine to not be any of the above three types of human variations.  If one wants what one perceives as “special powers,” reasonable versions of those are attainable through metaphysical and occult practices.  “Instant powers” never come through self-identification in any of the above-mentioned categories.

Edumucating The Masses: A Golden Apple For The Teachers

 

I love being part of the information network of the Vampire Community.

We share practical information about feeding, along with other material, to help Modern Living Vampires live healthy, fruitful lives. Another part of our function is that we educate the non-vampiric masses about the reality of what it is to live with vampirism–what it constitutes and what it does not.

Much of our information is readily available on our blogs, websites, online groups…a lot of it for free. But, how much good are we actually doing? Are we actually making a difference to anyone?

The amount of negative response seems almost overwhelming, at times.  It often makes me question whether I am offering accurate, helpful or positive information. For the most part, I am sharing my perspective as a completely personal one. I am going by my own experience and sometimes those of my friends, who also share their original content online.  I often reiterate that I am not any sort of spokesperson for the modern Community.  I am not a textbook Modern Vampire.  I also make it clear that while I have my ideas about what I consider Vampirism–there are many others who hold their contrasting and varying opinions and interpretations.

As part of an unofficial collective of writers, I am aware of the large amount of written and spoken material available on Sanguinism, Energy Vampirism and a variety of other vampire-related topics. It would seem that with all that information so easily accessible, one might think that we should have a lot more smoother interactions in our online and in-person groups.

I suspect that because I am so focused on information-sharing, on the groups that share information and the teachers and speakers…it seems almost odd to me that other people would come into the community and not want to focus on taking in as much information as they possibly could on vampirism, weighing it out and coming to their own working interpretation of the spectrum of experience.

As it currently stands, The Vampire Community and The Online Vampire Community are not carefully and rigidly structured–regardless of what they were ORIGINALLY intended to be. The Community is a loosely connected web of groups (virtual and in-person), people and events.

On the part of the teachers/educators and every other person that enjoys sharing information–my interpretation is that we share that information which we sincerely feel brings a benefit to other Modern Vampires’ lives.  The hazard is when we look for positive feedback to let us know that we are sharing relevant and helpful information.  We can make the mistake in assuming that the people who need our information the most, who benefit from it (immediately or in the future) are also able to articulate themselves or simply are not too shy to speak up.  It is difficult to speak through and hear through the larger amount of negative feedback, response and drama that floods the communication lines…simply because Modern Vampires are still human….and most humans are negative.

At risk of sounding cynical–it seems that there is a lot more negativity in this world than there is positive energy and encouragement.  Just by virtue of people tending to express more of this negative energy, we will run into more discouragement than encouragement from others.  This negativity seems to outweigh (and sometimes drown out) the positive reinforcement and encouragement that we also receive for our efforts.

When I share my observations and my perceptions, I speak from my personal experience.  I share what makes sense to me on an intellectual level.  I share which experiments I perform on a magickal, energetic level and which working conclusions I have thusfar come to.  When I come up against criticism and/or contrary views or information–I give myself time to process whatever my initial reaction/response is….then, I question and analyze everything.

On my side–I question whether what I share might be helpful to someone in a practical way.  By this, I question whether it might be some piece of information that someone could apply to their life in some way (on a mental, emotional or physical level) or that it might simply be something inspirational, affecting their mood in a positive way.

With any criticism that I receive for my articles, I do consider if there might be any truth behind that critique.  Before I consider those words, I look back at what I’ve written.  Is what I wrote relatively true, according to my interpretation of my personal experience and analysis of that experience?  Even if this personal account or interpretation is not common among the masses, is it possible that my account or perception might validate or be helpful to someone else in the world?  If the answers to my set of questions are that I was being true to myself and that I can honestly perceive that my information will find the right person that needs it at the right time for them, then I am at peace with my sharing.

How practical is it to reiterate the guidelines of common sense, disclaimers of safety and responsibility (physical and/or energetic) with each of my articles?  What about the idea that anything that I have to say could be “dangerous” or “unethical” to the reader or student?  My answer to that is that I won’t ever share anything that any reasonable adult would endanger themselves doing.  I am not responsible for any other adult not having common sense or using their ability to research any activity and its safety parameters before they engage in that activity.  I cannot be responsible for anyone’s recklessness or for someone who is not of their right mind.

If I had the responsibility to keep someone safe, I would be able to control what sort of information they had access to and what sort of activity they engaged in.  I cannot be responsible for someone that I don’t have control over.  Give me absolute control over someone, then I would be happy to be responsible for them.

As a teacher (someone who offers information), I will act in a way that is respectful and true to what I feel is right, at all times.  I do not need to perform in any way, with the intention of gaining approval…nor am I going to perform in a way of trying to gain someone’s disapproval, as a stealth act of rebellion.

Here’s where I admit that it gets tricky.  On one hand, I want the freedom for all Living Modern Vampires to be able to live freely in a way in which we can easily share information relevant to our real-life scenarios.  This includes being able to speak of, find and engage with willing donors and the uneducated/unenlightened vampires in a much easier fashion.  This would be the ideal.

However, while we are still working towards these ideals of safe/practical networking in the world, we need to be aware of what we are currently working in and with in the present moment.  What we are working with is a society of varying personalities, belief systems and prejudices.  In terms of the non-vampires, we need a certain degree of normalization of Vampire activity–to where we can reveal ourselves as necessary for purposes of practical function in the world and to make ourselves available to awakened/unawakened kindred, when we see it as fit, on a case by case basis.

As long as we educate with sincerity and constantly weigh the value of revealing and sharing information against any possible desire to shock our audience, we might be outweighing the negative feedback with benefits in the world.

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Awakening–Identity, Conviction, False Assumptions, Big Expectations and Other Hooplah

I came across someone talking about Awakening, the other day.  This was specifically in an Otherkin group; but I have seen this happen in Vampire groups, as well.  Some of us are Vampiric, because we are Otherkin…and, a lot of us just tend to hang out in each other’s communities.  We do share a few common terms and experiences–one of the bigger ones being “Awakening”.

Awakening itself is a general concept.  Recently, someone asked for help in “Awakening completely”….to which someone else replied that no one can make Awakening happen any faster, it is just something that happens on its own.

To my understanding, an Awakening refers to the self awareness of one’s true nature.  This means, that one was not intellectually aware of what one was/is before, because one has been told or led to believe that they are something different.

In my western world, my corner of which is heavily Christian and Catholic, we are generally taught that we are physically human with human souls.  In our standard mythology, we are not angels or demons, divine in any way….we have human souls.  In our standard western mythology, we are not taught that we have had any previous incarnation as any animal, mineral, plant….we are not taught that we have had our consciousness in any other form than what we are experiencing right now as humans.  We are not presented with the possibility that we could have had any non-human experience as any other being in any other dimension or planet.  In our Christian mythology, we are told that we have one human lifetime and we exist only as human souls.

Personally, I don’t believe in every metaphysical theory or concept that I am presented with….but, I acknowledge that there is as much collective evidence to verify the Christian metaphysical theories as there is to justify other metaphysical theories  that exist outside of the Christian modality.  In short, I see no reason to invalidate one’s personal experience and interpretation of that internal experience, as long as it does not interfere with one’s ability to lead a productive, healthy, happy life.

In my personal timeline, my Awakening was more of an intellectual acceptance of a particular description of being and the embrace of the general concepts of the Vampire Community.  My particular version of Awakening was coming to terms that the description of a Modern Living Vampire applied to me and my life.  However, there are so many different interpretations of what Awakening is.

To my understanding, Awakening is the process of realization of one’s nature.  It is a natural and organic process that unfolds over long-term contemplation.  When I read that someone wanted help in their Awakening process, I could not help but think that maybe it wasn’t really Awakening that they were looking for.

There seems to be more people within the Kin/Vampire Communities who misidentify because, on some level, they perceive benefits to being Kin/Vamp, even if they are not.

Some people want to believe that they are Kin/Vampire because they think that they will have “special powers” if they are–or that they will be taught how to use those “special powers”, if the Community is fooled into thinking that they are.  This is delusional thinking at worst, role playing at best.  Actual Modern Living Vampires recognize that there are natural benefits to feeding and health limitations when they do not feed.  Actual Otherkin/Therians understand that they are non-human souls housed in human bodies….and not human souls in a human body, as western/Christian teachings have instructed them.  These sets of realizations are used to make the Modern Vamp/Kin more functional in their day-to-day life.  We have our internal understanding and, depending on our individual perception of metaphysical/non-material reality, observe whichever paranormal activities are actually real and occurring in our lives.

As far as our personal information, this is the basic understanding of what we are.  Our self-identification, as far as we understand the concept individually.  I personally do not put too much stock in worldly self-identification–at least, not the degree to which other people seem to defend it.  However, there are some people who function much better when they have strong convictions in who they define themselves as, what they self-identify as…their Kin and their type.

Ideally, self-identification should help a person navigate more smoothly through their life, more elegantly through their day.  Knowledge empowers.  Information prepares.  Improper use of information, negative use of information creates more discord.  To falsely or incorrectly self-identify holds no permanent benefits and puts one in the middle of their own fantasy, which will eventually ostracize them from everyone.

Our measurement for the validity or accuracy of metaphysical, non-material information is our intuition and psychic sensing.  We might be able to observe physical manifestations of these concepts and sometimes analyze the correspondence between the two through our intellect.  Not everyone has the same abilities to psychically sense, observe and analyze information perfectly.  Some of us are better than others.  Some of us develop our senses over diligent practice and correct training.

Within every spiritual system, religion and metaphysical group–there are plenty of people who do not have the objectivity and insight to accurately assess information beyond the physical senses.  While I do believe that there are some very real non-human souls in human bodies (Otherkin), I suspect that there are quite a few more people who are trying to make themselves fit the description of a “non human” for secondary (and usually, imaginary) benefits.  As a modern shaman and mage, I can see where using an archetype or thoughtform (as a Role Model or through Godform Assumption) can be very helpful.  Even if all signs point to someone being very much human-souled, magickally-(mentally-) identifying as a non-human entity can be incredibly beneficial…but, only as an internal working, kept private and to one’s self.

The only criteria for Modeling/Assumption (as an Animal Spirit or Fictional Being) is that the magician be completely honest with themselves and not try to pass themselves off TO OTHERS as something that they are not.  Passing yourself off falsely always catches up with you and ostracizes you from any and all groups, once the truth comes out.

Part of unraveling whether one is truly Kin/Vamp or not is also mentally entertaining the possibility that one is not.  Going over the possible reasons why one might NOT be Kin/Vamp includes looking over the desired benefits of identifying as one.  Does “realizing” one is Kin mean that there is now access to “powers” or abilities that one can’t possess if one is not Kin?  Any and all humans can practice sorcery, energy manipulation and the psychic arts.  All of our paranormal and meta-human experiences fall under those umbrella categories.  Actual Kin/Vamps can only display psychic or magickal feats within the normal  range of any other human which has put in a large amount of time studying and practicing.  The range of possibility for magickal or psychic expression is the same for human-souled humans and non-human-souled humans.  Kin/Vamps cannot express anything beyond which any other human can.

To address some normally unspoken myths about being a Kin or Vamp–we cannot mentally control others, get away with stealing, get away with physically bullying or intimidating others, impress others in an extremely unnatural way (glamour)–in short, we cannot break any laws of the land or laws of physics.  This might be a total guess on my part, but from what little clues I get from people who are delusional or role players….I have to assume that they are assuming that Fictional behavior (scifi physical shifting and other movie powers) are real-life experiences of established or long-identified Kin.

Awakening is the mental/emotional process of understanding what you are on a soul or energetic body level.  It is understanding how your energy works or how you express yourself on a non-physical level, so that you can work with those expressions in a way which make you more emotionally comfortable and possibly more expanded on those spiritual levels.

Insisting that you are something that you might not be is NOT a magickal way to confer special powers onto yourself.  This is the same line of thinking that has people searching for those “magic words” or special formulary that instantly transmutes physical reality, in some way.  Either that is sometimes the underlying thought process or some non-Kin/non-Vamps seem to be convinced that established members of the Communities have some special (or again, magickal) secrets that we only give out to Kindred.

There really is no way to Awaken someone who is non-Kin.

A human soul is a human soul, but can still master the metaphysical arts.

Another misperception about Awakening is that it will somehow make you feel instantly empowered.  With that most recent post, I somehow got the impression that when the poster was asking for help in Awakening, they were actually asking for help in the emotional arena–perhaps feeling centered, strong or settled.  Reading between the lines, it seems that many people who come into the Kin Communities are trying to fill in emotional gaps and needs that have nothing to do with being other-souled, but are very much connected to having the emotional body that comes with a physical human form.

As part of smoothing the Awakening/Questioning process along, I suggest exploring the possibility that you are not Kin and coming up with reasons why you might want to falsely identify as such.  What do you really want or expect out of discovering that you are Kin/Vamp?  What are all the other ways of fulfilling those needs?  If you are really not Kin/Vamp, what can you get out of substitute activities in Magick, Sorcery, Psionics, Psychicism, Energy Work?

Looking into workable alternatives will save you a lot of time and energy, rather than chasing after delusions and burning a lot of bridges with valuable people that could be good resources of information and inspiration.  Many powerful magicians, psychics and metaphysicians were born human and worked for their achievements.

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