Why The Sinister Approach Might Not Be The Best For All Personality Types

Energy feeders come into the GVC from all directions.  Some come in from the Pagan groups.  Some from the Magickal groups or the Energy Workers groups.  Others come straight into the world of vampirism, without passing through any other structure, tradition or school of thought.  For those of us that are ethical in their feeding practices, who follow some sort of code of conduct, we might be applying aspects of what we initially learned in other metaphysical practices.  Some of our ethics might be in place simply from what makes sense to our personality types, our individual sense of compassion or empathy.

Many members come into the world of Energy Feeding with very little background in the occult….sometimes, also new to the worlds of magick, Satanism, LHP or other traditions which do not have a strong emphasis on behaving in an “ethical” manner.  While the Sinister pathways are not for every new beginner, neither are any of the darker or LHPathways appropriate for every personality type.

This is not a commentary on the validity or legitimacy of sinister practices or darker traditions, in any way.  They are simply more destructive for those who come into these pathways with a self-destructive mindset.  Keeping in mind that while not everyone consciously craves self-evolution, it might be safe to say that the majority of our human personalities want self-satisfaction.  Not everyone is in the correct mindspace to manifest self-satisfaction and could bring about more self-frustration on the darker paths, accidentally….because they just don’t know any better.

Energy vampires who believe in ethically feeding do so for a multitude of reasons.  Some of us are following rules of karma–the straightforward idea that whatever we do comes back to us in some form or another.  If we are fair and careful with our feeding, we will be treated fairly in all other aspects of life.  There are others who are guided by their feelings of love and compassion towards their fellow human.  There are those of us who are ethical in our feeding, just as there are some of us who consciously follow our particular senses of ethics in eating animal products.

Some new Feeders justify drawing unethically, because they are very much in love with thinking of themselves as Predators.

One of the concepts that is often….misused? misconstrued? misunderstood?…is that of the Vampire as a predatory creature.  It’s just cool to throw that word out there.  “Predator” has become as much of a buzzword as “Vampire”, itself.  Newly awakened Energy Feeders and those that are new to the GVC often fall in love with the idea of being a predator–it implies strength and being beyond the limitations of any rules.  Predators are powerful.

The problem with wanting to identify as a Predator is that some of us are actually the exact opposite.  One of the factors missing in the GVC, the Pagan Community (and the Otherkin Community, as well) is that self-empowerment is not emphasized as a general rule.  If one is lucky, one falls in with a coven, house or group that helps shape one’s healthy sense of self through honest self-evaluation, exploration and healing.

The Communities are full of bullies, posers and otherwise loud members.  It is easy to express one’s self as a Predator, while simultaneously harboring A LOT of unexplored wounds.  This is the worst kind of “predator”–someone who snaps, bites and barks out of long-standing pain, weakness and the constant paranoia that comes with a strong sense of vulnerability.  Anyone who does not acknowledge their mental and emotional weaknesses, but poses as a powerful creature, is building a stone fortress on quicksand.

Energy feeders (and really, any kind of creature that finds their self drawn to the Vampire Community) are still born with a human personality.  Regardless of specific feeding needs and other qualities special to one’s type, we each find ourselves with an emotional body….with all of the wounds and issues special to each one of our personal histories.  Our levels of victimization could be one of the most important factors that affect our experience as a predator.

It would be helpful to evaluate what is in our psyches. In meditation or journaling, ask yourself–What is the nature of the world that we live in?  How much fear do I have….how vulnerable am I?  How safe am I?  Can I protect, defend against or simply avoid all other predatory creatures in the first place?  Even if I view myself as being predatory….what is my relationship to all of the other Things that eat in this world?  Simply put, how does the world work….and how do I best navigate in it?

Anyone who practices energy work (feeding) is still subject to the rules and laws of metaphysics and manifestation.  If they are pulling in large amounts of energy….especially without the need to use it for health on a physical or emotional level….they are adding energy to the states of mind/emotion and to the thoughtforms that they carry within their psyches–conscious and subconscious.  Anyone who is pulling in large amounts of psychic energy, without putting it into fueling their physical and emotional health, is automatically energizing whatever thoughtforms that exist in their energy bodies, negative or positive.

Most newcomers to any metaphysical practice, including energy work, often have intense emotions.  Unless they get control of their emotional body, including healing old issues, these wounds keep getting energized and manifesting as uncomfortable and very negative life situations and events.  One can banish them or any of their effects–but unless one pulls out these issues by the root, they will continue to manifest.

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Some Random Notes For People Who Are Sincerely Wondering If They Are Vampires…Or A Little Something About Our Version of Realistic Expectations

I do not claim to be any sort of elder or teacher.  I do not claim to be any sort of expert.  I’m just someone that is having their own experience, that I try to understand as best as I can.  My general trend is that I try to be as helpful as I can, in whichever way makes sense to me at the time.

As an energy healer, I try to help people be as functional as they can be, in whichever area that I can help them in.  As I understand it–to be healthy is to be as functional a human being, as possible.  Physically healthy, emotionally healthy, mentally healthy.  My helpfulness sometimes comes in the form of energy work, but more often than not, it comes in the form of the information that I share.

There are many people who come into the GVC with unrealistic expectations, only to be disappointed or frustrated.  Some of these unrealistic expectations come from misidentifying as a Vampire OR misunderstanding what a Modern Vampire is…and expecting particular experiences that are never going to come.

Before you self-identify as a Vampire, the most basic question to ask yourself is “Why?”….what would be the benefits of why you would want to identify as a Modern Living Vampire?  In my experience, I was not trying to prove that I was a MLV.  On the other hand, I was looking for other reasons to explain what my health problems were, so that I could fix them.  Somehow, somewhere….many people have this idea that once they absolutely confirm “what” they are, they will magickally feel complete.

One reason that people want to self-identify as some part of a group is that they want to feel like they belong to a Community, with the unspoken expectation that the Community will provide emotional support (satisfaction)….and possibly, the unspoken promise of physical security, as well.  Within the existing Vampire Community, there is strife between Energy Feeders and Blood Feeders, even among members of the same type-group.  We are a group, still full of people that do not get along with each other, at times….because we are all still completely human.

Being born into a human personality, comes with some limitations, false expectations and boundaries.  Loneliness, not feeling special, needing external validation and feeling unloved are all incentives to want to self-identify as Otherkin, Vampires or otherwise some special creature.  Some personality work, self-empowerment and meditation will help heal these personal misconceptions.  Even if one is legitimately an Energy or Blood Feeder, it would be extremely helpful to take care of these personality flaws so that one does not continue to act out of these insecurities.  Even if one can legitimately defined as a Modern Vampire, one can still have these personality issues.

One can feel the need to feel special–often with the underlying understanding that once one feels special, all emotional and physical needs will be met by the surrounding environment.  This is an amorphous concept for most.  Many of us have this need to feel special, but not really know which experiences we need to cement this realization into our psyches.  Before you call yourself a Vampire, ask yourself if you want to be one, because you want to be perceived as special.  Would you still be a Vampire, if NO ONE ELSE knew that you were?

If you didn’t tell anyone, would you still think of yourself as a Vampire?

In the GVC, we discuss metaphysical topics, just as we do in the magickal communities.  People throw around words like “powers”, “abilities” and “talents”.  Psychic phenomena, magickal occurences and energy movement cannot be measured by the same tools as can physical activity and material world movement.  Non-physical metaphysical activity in our world is measured by observation, perception and the changes that take affect on a physical, emotional or mental level.

Because it is so subjective, practical members of the Vampire Community take care to observe personal, internal activity…and any possible effects that those activities have on the external world.  Energy feeders especially question whether taking in energy has any benefits to their personal system….we question if there is an actual need to take in extra energy and if we can supplement our energy needs with natural resources, only (air prana, solar prana, tree/plant energy)–rather than human energy sources.

As far as psychic phenomena and metahuman activity goes, none of the energy feeders and blood feeders that I know have any abilities beyond the range of ANYONE who practices any occult, psychic, magickal or metaphysical techniques outside of the Vampire Community.

I have clairvoyant, clairaudient, manifestation, telepathic, precognitive experiences…but, my skill range is comparable to other non-Vampire Witches and Psychics that I personally know.  I can augment my physical strength level with psychic energy.  I am sometimes told that my reflexes are faster than normal.   I can also throw up telepathic illusions, which people react to….even if they don’t know exactly the form of the illusion that is being used.  Any of the metaphysical phenomena that I experience can be experienced by any non-vampiric human who also practices working with energy.

All humans work with energy, anyway.  Metaphysically speaking, that is the nature of this reality.  In my opinion, Energy Feeders–Psychic Vampires, Spiritual Sangs, Dual Feeders, Spiritual Vampires–are not born at the expert level of energy manipulation.  We might have an instinctive need to be nourished on another level, so we instinctively start pulling energy in.  It is the constant activity that becomes its own sort of practice.  We become so used to moving psychic energy out of personal need that we become sensitive to it and able to work with it, easily.

We cannot pass along that level of skill that is based on amount of practice time spent.  A bad rough analogy is trying to teach someone how to lift a 100-pound weight that had never done weightlifting a day in their life.  But even so, even after a lifetime of mostly unconsciously working with psychic energy, I still don’t have any superpowers to perform the extraordinary feats like the Vampires in the movies or storybooks.

And none of the other Vampires that I know are that powerful, either.

If you suspect that you are anything out of the norm of society, ask yourself if you need this identity  based on the approval, reaction or knowledge of the others around you.  Start from there.

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